I have to confess that my second attempt has failed at day 6. This is turning out to be more difficult than I thought... It al started when I received a naughty message in the email, one thing lead to another and I went on a binge of porn consumption. I'm sad because I thought that I would have the power...

Last night was difficult, I had trouble sleeping. Today I woke up feeling tired. All the day I've been feeling drained, very anxious and experimenting mood swings. I've been too distracted to do anything.

In the afternoon it rained, so it looked very difficult to go out and do my walking, but I did it anyway. He who really wants to do something, always finds the way... Now I'm feeling much better, so I think this won't be the last day of my endeavour either, maybe tomorrow. Meanwhile, I could use those promised phone books, maybe to chew on them a little...

Again I'm at day 5 of my "abstinence" program, but this time I don't think it will be the last day. Maybe tomorrow, but not today

So, my first attempt at abstinence has failed at day 5 ><

One thing I noticed during those 5 days was how with each passing day I felt more full of energy. However, I also felt this anxiety that became unbearable by today morning. Being single makes it worse. Many times sex is just a substitute for love. Not having anyone to hug or kiss, it feels like the next best thing :/

Hi everybody, I'm ferjcas, I'm a male, 23, currently single, and I'm here because I want to put an end to my porn - and masturbation - addiction. What made me seek for help is realizing that besides all the time wasted that could have been spent in more productive activities, this habit was really draining all my energies and taking the place of school, work and real relationships.

After reading the section on porn addiction here in Reuniting, I agree with almost everything that I read there because I've lived it. So, here I'm starting my journey toward a better way of life.