1step@time's blog

So its been 3 weeks ( 21 days) of no MOP. Today is 22, and I'm looking forward to the future. Ive been here before, and week 4 is when I gave in in all previous attempts of going for 90. I think things are different. For one, I've cut junk food almost entirely from my diet, including simple, refined foods such as pasta and white bread. I've also undertaken a raw food diet semi-successfully, which seems to help alot with my decision making ability and impulse control.

Well yesterday I was working with a colleague of mine over the internet and had accidently deleted some piece of information and went to go retrieve it from the recycling bin. The Recycling Bin was organized using thumbnails. When I went in to search for the file I accidently and unknowingly came across a deleted P scene that wasn't fully deleted from my computer. It was probably one of the hottest scenes I have ever seen. I just saw the thumbnail of a random building and no P or anything.

Up until very recently I thought I had undergone a successful reboot ( 30 days) and was content with a balanced sexual and masterbation schedule ( about once every two weeks). After developing an interest in reading many of your blogs during my reboot period, I have continued to revisit this website after my percieved successful reboot. There is a little voice in my head, however, that there may be something more over the rainbow with a longer reboot period, possibly 90 or 100 days. My plan therefore is to try to the best of my ability to see this experiment of mine through.

Hey guys. I havent posted in a while, mostly because I often find myself posting the same thing which gets a bit old after a while. Recently, however, I came across something that not only has been beneficial to coping with the withdrawal symptoms and uneasiness that rebooting entails, but other aspects of my life. Its basically a herb with a well documented history of sucessfully treating mild to moderate depression and anxiety. Its called St John's Wort and I take it buy brewing it as a tea. I purchased a jar of the herb as an oil extract of St.

Hey everybody, got 15 days in the bag and on 16 right now. Just chugging away, being accountable by posting and trying to live with PMO. Theres a part of me that is just waiting for a relapse. Its a thought that says ' Do you really think you can do this? C'mon, 2 weeks is good enough, time to get back to normal'. Ugh, demotivational I know. They say time heals all things ( at least alot of them) and so going to continue with the healing process. Excuse me if this is not a very inspiring postI did have an anxiety ridden, sleep deprived state of rest.

So I made it to day 13 despite allot of urges and stresses to give in. The thing I noticed is despite the acknowledgement of all the terrible side effects of giving in, like anxiety, stress, social awkwardness, lost confidence, etc. I still have real urges to PMO. But im pushing through. I think a big problem with me is that I started counting the days and really focusing on the abstinence part of the journey. For example, I wake up and say to myself its day 13 blah blah blah. Think I have to really find something to do to occupy myself.

Ive been around the block a few times when it comes to rebooting attempts. Over the last year or so I've had about 4 periods of hitting close to the 30 day mark of abstinence from PMO, coupled with many 2 week, 1 week and 3-5 day stints. What I've noticed is it has become more easier to progress through the first week and 2 week period with each successive reboot cycle. I also feel that the withdrawal period I experience seems to be occurring during the 3rd and 4th week period.

Okay so I have 10 full days of abstinence in the bag. I kind of feel low and foggy mentally, but I suspect this has to do with going on an energy drink binge the last 3 days. I love the stuff but man am I out of it when I don't have it. So I'm basically going through a little energy drink withdrawal within a PMO withdrawal. I saw the Ted video that was posted earlier and it really hit home. I'm definitely going to cut out video games for the month, they waste a lot of hours.

So to my surprise I was made aware by a family member that the other night I had a night terror. I had no recollection of the experience whatsoever, but I remember waking up exhausted, sore back, headache and tired eyes. This person heard me screaming violently and loudly, and recalls me kicking the bed with my feet. It was as if I was running from something. Crazy.

So to my surprise I was made aware by a family member that the other night I had a night terror. I had no recollection of the experience whatsoever, but I remember waking up exhausted, sore back, headache and tired eyes. This person heard me screaming violently and loudly, and recalls me kicking the bed with my feet. It was as if I was running from something. Crazy.