Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Fri, 2011-09-09 13:55
Thursday last, was the second day Izzy was away from home. This has been a huge trigger since childhood. Home alone and the porn comes out. My last slip was in July. I'm cruisin' the new TV channels, and you know the story. There were young women taking their tops off and I watched for AN HOUR! I got hard but didn't do nothin' about it. I told Izzy this time. She said matter-of-factly, "Yeah, I figured,. You were alone." Man, does she have my number. The interesting part was the intense suffering on Saturday. I wanted her so bad. I was depressed and soooooo needy.
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Mon, 2011-08-08 08:37
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Wed, 2011-06-29 16:42
I got called out in a PM by a person who I respect. This is an edited copy of my response. You all are only seeing one side of the exchange. I'm sharing primarily because I know I often write as if I am a victimized saint and exposure is good. I am not seeking support for some poor bloke who's been dope slapped.
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Sun, 2011-06-26 16:05
All was going along ok
4 days ago (Wednesday) I asked Izzy (for the gazillionth time), "Do you want the First Lesson in Tantra?" Some negotiations and she said, "OK, 10 minutes." A challange to be sure.
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Sun, 2011-06-26 14:09
"Come away with me," I said. A work trip to a nice little town in the Sierra foothills. She said, "Yes". I love it when she says that.
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Sun, 2011-06-26 13:09
Last week I labored over an entry. Went to preview, got caught up in checking the text, and without knowing where the cursor was, I hit backspace twice, and it all disappeared....never to be found 
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Wed, 2011-06-01 16:22
I think more happened than she's 'fessing up to
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFRC6LbfZ6g
"A Breath Taking, First Sight Soul Shaking, One Night Love Making, Next Day Heartbreaking Guy"
by William "Smokey" Robinson
One night you held me tight
And whispered in my ear
All night sweet words
I never heard
And I believed every word
Next day you came my way
Without a word to say you passed me by
You didn't bat an eye
My darling won't you tell me why
You're acting strange toward me
Why have you changed toward me
Are you just a breathtaking
First sight soul-shaking
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Sun, 2011-05-22 11:38
Will you pray with me?
She was reluctant (cultural induced reaction) but acquiessed
Take my hands, close your eyes, repeat after me
"May I be filled with loving kindness
May I be well
May I be peaceful and at ease
May I be happy"
Open your eyes. We held eye contact
"May you be filled with loving kindness
May you be well
May you be peaceful and at ease
May you be happy"
"May all sentient beings be filled with loving kindness
May all sentient beings be well
May all sentient beings be peaceful and at ease
May all sentient beings be happy"
She countered with:
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Tue, 2011-05-17 09:00
It's so nice when it works.
Yesterday I heard her up and called her to my bed. She came. As I held her, she asked, "Is this cuddling karezza?" "No it's cuddling. Karezza involves intercourse." We spent the day home together. The 2 year old, One Who Blesses Us All was with us for a few hours. Later we sat close (thank you small screens) to look at photos and video we took of The Blessed Child. Arms around My Beloved, I said, "Let's make love." "Yeah, I know." as she moved away. This is good. Last O, for me, was is Feb and last month's attempt at karezza didn't work out.
Submitted by Aphrodites Chela on Sat, 2011-04-30 22:10
What is the purpose?
What does it do for you?
Do you have to make it hard?
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