cyberbob82's blog

I've been away for a little while because I've been busy with other things. Mainly I've been dancing a whole lot and life is really good for me right now. I haven't fallen off the wagon, so to speak. I haven't looked at porn since July 6th last year and I've been keeping masturbation to a minimum. I find that when I do masturbate I get the urge to keep on doing it, but when I abstain, the longer I go without it, the less I tend to want it.

So it's been 5 months (or roughly 20 weeks) since I've last looked at porn. Here's what's been happening.

18 weeks porn free. Here's what's been happening:

* I'm still keeping masturbation down to a minimum. I'd like to get to the point where I only masturbate when I actually feel horny, that is, when desire proceeds sexual stimulation. I've noticed that often I'll masturbate out of habbit, boredom, need to relax, need to sleep etc. More on this later.

16 weeks porn free. Here's what's been happening:

* I've been making an effort not to masturbate and I haven't in 8-9 days and I do really notice the difference. It definitely makes me more outgoing and sociable. I might as well stick with it some more. I don't think masturbation is the enemy, but I do see a lot of benefit from cutting down drastically.

14 weeks porn free. Here's an update on what's been happening:

* Still porn free from the start of July. I've masturbated more than I should, which I'm not proud of. I've also read some erotic stories so I'll have to keep an eye on this. I also hurt my wrist playing soccer so I haven't been able to hit the gym, which is making me kind of restless.

So I skipped my week 11 update. Sorry sports fans. There was so much going on and I had my birthday and what not. I was doing a lot of partying basically. I have to get back to normality now. There's only so much a man's liver can take. I haven't looked at any porn and I've probably masturbated 4 times over these last 2 weeks. So here's what been happening since 2 Wednesdays ago:

So I'm 10 weeks into my quest to ditch porn. I haven't watched porn during this time and seem to be recovering well.

Stuff that happened since last Wednesday:

So today brings up 9 weeks since I started my plan of abstinence. This week marks a turning point in the recovery process for me. Before I go on, I need to describe the girl from salsa dancing. She's 21 years old, tall, blonde hair, green eyes (I love green eyes), great body, and cool as hell. She's really street smart and down to earth and can hold a conversation about heaps of things. She just wants to have fun, which is exactly what I need right now. I think it's safe to say my libido is back.

Stuff that happened since last Wednesday:

I've completed 8 weeks of abstinence (sort of). I haven't looked at any porn but I had two orgasms. One was at the hands of a Thai massage girl last Thursday night and the other was self-inflicted on Sunday night. When I actually did come after 7 weeks...well let's just say I think she's probably still cleaning her ceiling. Holy shit! :-P

I've completed 7 weeks of abstinence. That means no porn of any kind, no masturbation or orgasm for 7 weeks. It's been easy to not look at porn, but I'm still missing my libido. I've started a new weights program, which I'm pretty excited about. It involves working out more days than before. So hopefully that will assist with increasing testosterone (and libido).