diamondsoul22's blog

hey everybody,

just stopping by to give an update.

i ended up Ming and Oing last night to a rape fantasy in my head. I feel almost ashamed to bring this up in the forum, but I know that alot of people here go through the same stuff.

hey guys just stopping by to give my crazy roller coaster update.

Tuesday i tried Bikram yoga for the first time. I almost blacked out half way through, but i managed to remain inside the torture chamber (room heated to 105 degrees) through the whole 90 min. This first experience left me with a headache the whole day, but i know now that its because i wasn't hydrated enough. with that said, i still enjoyed the session and am happy i went and tried something new.

hey guys, just stopping by to say hi. Marnia and freedom: thanks for the support the day that my date didnt show up. Im so glad that i have the forum to come to when im going through what feels like a crisis situation (and boy did it feel like a crisis ). Anyway ive been feeling much better these past couple of days allthough ive been feeling a little more anxious than usual as of lately.

Hey everyone,

well, i found out some disappointing news. i didn't get my dream job. i got the rejection email just a day or 2 ago. I took the news fairly well. i guess that the major thought that i keep having is "what now?" its back to the drawing board for me i guess. I know that it was a good effort to move forward in my life. im trying to have faith that the universe has a plan for me despite my frustration of feeling like i've been going no where over the years.

ok so i made it to the second date with the guy that i met. im on a role here . we had a really nice time overall. he took me to a great place. there are a couple of things that i kinda wish were different about him but nobody's perfect including myself so im trying my best to focus on the positives, but also not be blinded by them at the same time.. hes such a gentleman and its apparent that he really is interested in pleasing me. he has a good heart and he he speaks very fondly of his family. hes a great guy.

hi everybody. this blog particularly pertains to the ladies but men are welcome to contribute if they're interested . well any way, i believe it was Mantak Chia who said somewhere that when women menstruate that its the equivilant of male ejactulation in the sense that the life force or life energy is lost.

Hi everyone,
happy new year, just wanted to stop by and say hi and see what was going on around town.

everythings been fairly well for me, i seem to have lost my compulsion to masturbate and look at porn...i think its been a few months since ive had any issue with it...i lost count....although yesturday i did find myself sexually frustrated at one point, but it doesnt happen very often.

Hi everyone!!

its been a reallly long time. i havent blogged since the summer. ii regret having gone so long without stopping by here. i hope everyone had a wonderfull summer. theres alot to talk about, but since im at work ill try to make it as short and sweet as possible.

hi everyone, its been a while,

anyway, just stopping through to kinda just give an update to whats been going on in my life. Well, i have kinda been having some stuff going on with a close family member. she kinda disappeared on me recently and has yet to return home. other than that major dilema, things are just kinda "blah".

Hello my Reuniting family!!

I feels like its been forever since Ive blogged. I'm sorry for not responding to messages and posts; life seems to have picked up speed in these past few of weeks.

Anyway, On the overall, Im feeling well.

so heres the changes Ive noticed in these past 2 or three weeks:

feeling greater level of support in my life: