Discordia's blog

I have been gone awhile. I'm not sure that this post is actually hearkening a "return," in the long-term sense, but it feels appropriate today to be here. I dropped in recently, and read Hotspring's latest entry, and it got me thinking. This is not a response to her comments specifically, but a related tangent.

I've been using EFT here and there for about six months or so, mostly for little things, continuing to avoid delving into any bigger issues. I've gotten uncomfortably good at that - avoidance, that is. Always putting it off until a "better" time. I started again with my beginner level EFT several days ago, in which I began a morning routine using a positive affirmation form of EFT, to set good intentions for the day. As usual, it works like magick - probably because it is! :)

This post is about dating, specifically dating for those of us who have never been very good at dating, and those of us who may be a little rusty.

I was just thinking today that it's been exactly five Academy Awards shows since the night I first began reading PBTS. I remember because I went to an Oscar party at the home of my supervisor at the time, and it was when I got home that I started reading, and then, everything changed. Not all at once, and definitely not smoothly, but absolutely and for the better. I cannot even imagine where I would be now had I chosen a different path, or a different book from Barnes and Noble!

A professor of mine presented our class with a documentary film this week about our cultural views of masculinity, and how these male stereotypes are destructive, contributing to a growing problem of male violence. The documentary has been labeled an "educational tool," thereby driving up the cost of the DVD to about $250! However, I found a copy online, so I'm posting a link here. This version is edited to about 50 minutes, whereas the original is about an hour and a half, but I'm sure there is some good information here for those who are interested.

Here are a couple very simple, but in my experience, very powerful healing tools. The first is called the Tonglen Meditation, and actually, it's not a meditation at all, but more of a mindset. Personally, I have not developed yet the discipline of a regular meditation practice, so if you're like me, you needn't be afraid of this one.

I have a question for the men here who are struggling with porn addiction. It seems quite clear to me that there is an extreme shortage of women participating on this forum, as well as women signing up to be Courtly Companions. I've heard that many women may not feel comfortable talking with a man they do not know about this kind of problem, privately or publicly on the forum.

I was so hoping that my next post here would be one about all the amazing progress I've been making, so that I could offer encouragement to this community as I've been receiving from the other ladies here. Alas, all progress has been overshadowed by a bigger issue in my life these days. However, I would like to take this opportunity to mention that recent posts by Hotspring and Mitziky have been incredibly encouraging and motivating. Thank you goddesses.

I think that was me that said earlier this week to Marnia, “If I can survive this, I can survive anything.” I was talking about the fact that I am in the midst of the most intense week I’ve had yet in my college career. Midterms are kicking my behind, and the university I am transferring to in the fall has been sending me loads of information about what lies ahead for me as a student, and most of it requires some kind of immediate action on my part. It might as well be written in ancient Egyptian hieroglyphs at this point, because it’s all making very little logical sense.

I have had so much going on lately, that I have barely had time to think! My new companion and I have been having some really enlightening discussions, and I just have to say that I think our new friendship has been a blessing.