Live the Way's blog

for me, hope others here still counting. Easier than last time but spring is in the air and the brain is looking out for stimulus. Strong at the moment that it is not going to be from porn, but having to counter a slow steady sinking feeling at the same time.

Have been off line for ages as a result of moving house, so hi again to all aspirers towards integral oneness.

Have messed up big time whilst away, having got to 28 days on my first real attempt for 40 years ( one of the older campaigners). Still a positve in everthing and this has shown how important this web site is- thanks Marnia.

So day one tomorrow, having failed miserably today. Once back on line I though porn rather than reuniting. Confess that i did not want to visit the site because of wanting to taste that self medication a little longer, BUT

Very powerful full blown porn dream last night, can still remember it vividly, miracle that nothing happened, but I am not as young as some other posters.

So survived day 22, one glimpse of a face in the crowd almost set me off- so still intrigued to hear from others how you cope with being in public and curbing the desire. Look at direct, big breath and draw up the energy at a guess?

My non religious quote for the day:

"Applied energy- ennobled Human"

stay strong out there.

Thought I would integrate my first ever post with day 20 and on the verge of getting to the first milestone of 21 days ....in four decades ! No headache today but went into the freezing cold and did some Qui gong breathing, focusing on drawing energy up from the groin.