t4ytime's blog

Okay, I have just started dating this girl I talked about briefly in my last blog. We had a great time Thursday, went to a hockey game and she stayed over. I am reporting her observations to let you know this process seems to work, not to be arrogant. She says that I am "Sexy" and that I just make her crazy. We did have sex, briefly and I STILL held on to the chi. I think I may have to go out and jog a few miles and re-circulate afterward since it isn't that comfortable to have sex and not ejaculate. She couldn't make it to orgasm, but it was a nice trial run.

Set a new record and went to 38, my original goal was 40. I found myself with some free time and looked at some videos of women working out and went to town with masturbation proper Monday night. It's been 24 hours and I am boucing back. As I said before, when you have a healthy savings account you can afford a small withdrawal. Dosen't mean I didn't feel like total crap yesterday, I did. And you know something? The whole process felt, well, more procedural than sensual. I prefer the Aneros sessions hands down but that is another issue.

You have to see this, I laughed out loud a few times.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w9omaFSGKTI

Day 28, close to my record last year, which was about 30. However, I was so stressed at that time that I probably did not reap the full benefits. So far, a mixed bag. I am still using my Aneros a few times a week, sometimes it's incredible, way more sensual than regular ejaculation. Either way, it's still a good idea I find to leave myself completely alone and not look at any sexual imagery for a few days to get to that maximum sweet spot. That is when the Force is highest!

So I used my Aneros yesterday. For those of you who aren't familiar it is a sex toy that massages the prostate. Wonderful re-channeling of sexual energy but requires some re-wiring of the brain. You can totally forgo ejaculation and have some internal orgasms. Anwyay, truth be told there is a refractory or rest period with my plastic friend as well. Nowhere near the devastation of ejaculation but still a mild discombobulation. In my case, this lasts for about 18 to 20 hours. The good news is the energy races back at that time and you are up and running again.

Latest findings from my journey on being present and harnessing my energy. Last night, before falling asleep I really had a strong urge to use the Aneros or just plain masturbate proper. Instead, I became still and just let the energy sit. Yes, very hard to execute but with patience I worked though it. I breathed very deep and let it become a meditation of sorts. I soon fell asleep and I had a very thoughtful dream. I was at work, a bit younger and talking to my boss. This was at one of the old restaurants I worked. We were reoncoiling and becoming freinds after a falling out?

It all comes back to this. Being present and fully living in the actual second is a great start. No expectations or outcomes or fantasy. That is what leads to not only chronic masturbation, but overeating, insecurity, you get the idea. I started on my journey yesterday and felt really "clean" coming home from work. I lost my at work a bit once last night but it subsided much faster.

Well, it's been a while and I wanted to share some feedback after being out in the world full of sexual energy!

I finally, finally have my own pad! Tiny as it is, it's mine! I feel alive and free and more playful and creative. That has been a wonderful foundation.

I am now successfully not masturbating on a regular basis anymore (i.e. 2-3 times a week). That was my routine a few years back. I would be washed out and eating crap for the next day or so. It seems as if I have found what works for me.

This site and my Aneros have helped tremendously. I notice I take chances and talk to women with much more ease and confidence. Alas, I am on a path to mastery. Plenty of more discovery. I am also getting my own place, albeit a tiny bachelor apartment, in Sept.!

Just hang on, it gets better! My best.

I am going in cycles with my energy as I have highs and lows now. It has been about three weeks since I have had ejaculation proper. Now, in my last blog I talked about the Aneros, a device (sex toy) used to stimulate the prostate. If you have an open mind, and I was indeed skittish, it is well worth trying.