WolfInSheepsClothing's blog

Few months since my last posting, but I had been keeping an eye on things over here, and recently have got a lot of encouragement from what seems to be happening over on reddit/nofap

But that isn't the reason for this post.

I think my pursuit of my spiritual side is paying off (though I seem to be typing this in a voice that doesn't quite fit with what I want to type...)

Found out about a new film that apparently is about a character who has trouble controlling and managing his sexual compulsions, which apparently includes internet porn.

Michael Fassbender has revealed that he researched online porn for his latest film role.

Fassbender plays a man who is addicted to online pornography in Shame. He explained how he finds it "interesting" that porn addiction has yet to be recognised as an official illness.

I am quite a fan of Mooji, I regularly watch the clips posted on youtube, and struggle to fault him.

Just watched this video titled "Beyond Worthy or Unworthy" where someone asks about a sense of unworthiness, which I'm sure lots of people can relate to. Towards the end there are a couple of great little stories from Mooji also, but I am posting it here because it is an extract from a dvd called "Come Until You Can Not Go", which made me chuckle!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htDMBqhAO2o

I finally got The Brain That Changes Itself last week (omg amazin!), and having read the brain lock chapter on OCD I am finally concluding that I have had some kind of OCD gradually getting worse since I was a child. With a little internet research I recently came across this site with a bunch of stories about different OCD case studies, including how they were helped (usually combination of medication and exposure in these cases, unlike the brain lock symptoms from TBTCI). Thought I'd share them for anyone else out there as they are quite comforting for me right now:

Note from Marnia - This thread has a ♥ because it goes beyond recovery, and everyone's views are welcome.

Recently some members of the UK government have mentioned a plan to require people to opt-in if they want to be able to receive internet porn from their isp, citing it as protecting children from the dangers. Found this brief BBC discussion about the plan where the argument against tends to be that it is too difficult technically (people will always find a way around it), possible free speech implications, and that it's the responsibility of the parents.

Hi guys, saw this video, and thought of everyone here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifeRNNpF51s

Ooops, I did it again. Well, a couple of times.

However this time, different things happened.

So, I've been feeling my "inner" energy recently, concentrating on trying to feel comfortable in my self. I think our first and most important relationship we have in life is with ourselves. Maybe that's too much ego, or too arrogant or just plain self-centred, but I think it's important. Or maybe it's immature.

Hi, I thought I would post my porn usage diary that I have been keeping this year. It started off as simple as it can get, just a text file with a bunch of dots, but I started to add some quotes to remind me now and then, and have now added what my goals were at various points.

Although I did post once that I lost the point of counting days, I strongly recommend it to people struggling to go a couple of weeks.

Well posting on here whatever is in my head is certainly helping I think. Each day I'm coming up with things to blog about. Most of it probably sounds rubbish to others, maybe it will make more sense the more I keep at it. And then when I do get round to sitting down to type a post I forget everything I wanted to put.

I'd just like to thank everyone that posts here as well

My will to not use porn now seems to be dominated by wanting to improve my life. That seems to be the biggest thing that's helping me right now. I am choosing happiness. I don't want to fall back in to a depressed life. I want a purpose. (I feel I'm due a cry again)

I did a google for "the true cost of free porn" - don't do it, any articles on the subject are not indexed very highly by google. Instead there is a bunch of porn sites that I compulsive started to open, partly because I knew/hoped that my opendns filter would block them, which it did (thanks opendns!).