Today is day 16 of my reboot and I am dealing with a really rough post PMO hangover...BUT I didn't relapse.
Even though I am still on a clean reboot, I am crying, getting angry, feeling hopeless, and worse --just like I would feel after a PMO binge. I don't understand how I can feel this way, IDENTICAL to how I feel after a PMO binge, when I haven't even looked at P, didn't M or O.
The only things I can come up with is that
1) I binged on movies this weekend. After a hard work week last week, I did nothing but relax and lie around my apartment over the last 2 days. In total I watched 6 movies. Non of them sexy. No nudity. But they took me though the gamut of emotions: weepy love stories, action movies with revenge and violence, and comedies, even a foreign film thrown in. Could this be why I feel so bad today? Is my brain so damaged that I can't even experience strong emotions without having a PMO hangover?
2) I had a short but intense burst of fantasizing about one of my favorite erotic stories. The scenario played in my head a few times, it got really intense, I got really horny, and even had a semi erection. But I didn't touch myself, didn't M, didn't O. Did jsut fantasizing cause this emotional fallout?
Can anyone explain this? If anyone has ideas or has experienced this kind of thing, I would love to hear about it. I'm confused and discouraged. I'm not PMOing so I don't feel like this!