Age 33; Day 34 No PMO Symptoms Update

Today I'm feeling kind of stuck, and frustrated. I want more than anything to get out of my apartment. I want to go do things and be around people and get exercise. But, because I have so much stuff to do for school, I'm stuck inside working. The next few weeks are going to be the same too because I have upcoming deadlines for several big assignments. Plus, I really need to start conserving money. My financial situation is the other source of my frustration.

Last night I watched Gary's YBOP video about porn addiction again. That seems to help. And I keep trying to keep in mind that I'm only 34 days into what is really around a 100 day process. But it doesn't make the emotions go away.

I have been having trouble sleeping again. I'm also still feeling very pent up, like there is a huge knot inside me that is getting tighter. I also have dull head aches. I have not been getting morning wood lately, and I just feel stressed, overwhelmed, and stung out. I don't know how much of this is due to my battle against PMO. I sure do wish I could take a vacation though.

Basically, I guess I'm not feeling great today. I have low moral, and I'm feeling kind of exhausted from the fight. I'm not going to give in. I have no desire to look at porn, and I have come too far to masturbate. I don't want to screw up what I'm doing because I don't want to slow down the process. But it sure would be nice if my brain would cooperate.

Today I'm about a 4 out of 10.

Cheers