Day 34 - Just checking in

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Just posting for the sake of record keeping. Physically i'm fine, but I feel horribly depressed again. I just feel like crawling into a corner and crying. I'm just so fucking lonely.

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Looks like we're on the same

Looks like we're on the same day zybex. I'm feeling it today too. Must be a symptom. I think if I didn't have to work on things today I would go outside to try to get the dopamine juices flowing. Maybe you should try taking a walk downtown, or through a close by park, or on a bike trail. Just get out and moving and your brain will probably start feeling better. Just a thought. Good luck. Hang in there.

Update.

Update.
First wet dream in years last night, probably because I was so agitated during the day.
I felt a bit better yesterday after I had been throwing my dumbells around a bit. The effects of no PMO seem to extend into this area too - the weights felt almost too light, I was doing many more reps than I usually could and recovering for the next set in virtually no time at all. Amazing. If I had done a session like that before I would be a shivering, vomiting heap afterwards rather that feeling like I could take even more punishment easily.
Also I have fired off an email asking for more details of latin dance classes in my area. Not something I thought I would ever be doing, but suddenly I fancy having a crack at it. Mostly just to interact with people (ideally the kind with boobs.) Should be useful as the only shapes I know how to throw on the dancefloor at the moment feature such classics as the 'shitting Quasimodo' and the 'electrocuted chimpanzee'.

James2568 wrote:

Looks like we're on the same day zybex. I'm feeling it today too. Must be a symptom...

Thanks James. The new year seemed like a good point to start no PMO and it makes tracking the time easier doesn't it?
As well as the point we are at in our journey, lack of sunlight could well be contributing to our feeling down at the moment. We're possibly running a bit low on the good old vitamin D.