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Tough road

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Mon, 2008-08-25 02:00 — Lancer

Been on a tough road this month. It's what tends to happen when everything comes off and you slowly try to rebuild the pieces of everything. The longest I've achieved since is only about five days. I've done this twice, but I'm starting to set more concrete goals.

It's a wierd feeling. I'm finding that things I was okay with before I relapsed no longer are. For instance, I would be able to sit and not worry about people I'd see on TV or online or any of that stuff. Now, it's all back to where it was, and it's somewhat frightening how fast regression can happen.

As a result, I'm having to relearn the strictness I started with. Not quite there yet. I'm only working on my second day again. I've madea commitment, however, that I'm totally done September 1st. I'd like it even more if I made two days ago that case. Slowly it's starting to turn around, although I'm having to relearn being vigilant again. Time will tell if that is succesful.

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Mon, 2008-08-25 03:31 — Marnia
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Good for you, Lancer

Sorry you're struggling, but you have to succeed if you refuse to give up! Don't let the setbacks dishearten you. And thanks for letting us know how you're getting on.