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two out of three aint bad...
What am I going to do with my resurging sexual energy tonight? It's midnight and I should be getting to bed. I'm exhausted but a little edgy. Oh, about the title...no I'm NOT a meatloaf fan, I just meant that I've had two days of sobriety from orgasm and a clear-headedness which I have enjoyed. Now comes the hard part...(pardon the pun)...how do I keep going and complete day three? My desire just came back. Do I get a gun and blow it to pieces? Now I know what Jesus meant when he said "If your hand causes you to lose faith, cut it off". My hand has certainly been doing a bit of that lately... maybe I should chop the darn thing off!! (Don't worry I won't actually do it...because I have a gig on Sunday and I need the cash). If I pray, should I pray for the burden of desire to be eased, or for the courage and discipline to simply tolerate it? WHY ARE WE SO SEXUAL??! Give us a break, God, I mean, You put me in this body that is charged to be attracted to females, then your saints go around telling me to let go of that attraction to them. I humbly request a full explanation when we next meet.
I think I will just go to bed. My stores of life-force have been heavily drawn on for no good purpose these last few months. My body, mind and soul need a break.
Goodnight everyone!
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How did it turn out?:-)
Keep in mind that libido is normal, but you can't really blame God for the hyper-libido that shows up once you get caught in the porn cycle. That's *your* handiwork (good job!
).
That really intense desire to seek relief is actually what I think of as a "flare" of dopamine, provided by your primitive brain whenever you get near your computer, or imagine, or spot a cue that your brain associates with relief (thanks to the repeated "lessons" you taught it). Cues wouldn't be so overwhelmingly appealing if it weren't that you are feeling unnaturally flat or anxious or "not right" while your base level of dopamine is unnaturally low (thanks to a lot of over-stimulation earlier).
As you come back to balance, your normal dopamine levels bounce back. At that point you're not as vulnerable to the cravings...and also it may be that your brain tones down the "flares" because it "sees" you're not as desperate for relief.
Anyway, you're doing great. *big hug* Keep a list of other activities that increase oxytocin. They're the best medicine for withdrawal misery. Here's a post listing some oxytocin-producing behaviors: http://www.reuniting.info/node/1461#comment-3908 Deliberately avoid cues, too! Don't play with fire, or you send up another "flare."
Hi Asher.
In my view God has bestowed us with the desire for sexual union to help us unfold Spiritually by merging with the opposite sex through lovemaking.
What has happened on a massive scale here on earth is, that this Divine given desire has been distorted and reduced to sexual “excitement” without actual love being made between the man and the woman. The whole porn industry and a lot of the other medias are a clear reflection of this “distortion/misuse” of the sexual energy on earth.
It is a fact that sex without love “disqualifies” the sexual energy, which then sooner or later manifests as pain, conflict and descend in oneself and in ones life. Observing and contemplating what happened in my own life, those of others and listening to the enlightened Masters, have made me realize the truth about this. Sexual excitement only fuels and strengthen the lower “false” self, which then makes it that harder to realize ones True Self/True Nature (Self-realization).
The sexual energy used “rightly” through lovemaking, will increase the awareness, presence and love in and between the partners, bringing each other that closer to Self-realization and God.
So as I see it, its not about giving up your natural desire for expressing your sexuality - its about learning to use it “rightly” and responsibly and not for selfish gratification of the lower self.
'The words of the prophets are written on the cy-ber walls...'
Still sober (from porn and orgasm...not from Life though. Late Spring is intoxicating and it's all legal!). Thank you friends for your insights. Marnia, I will keep the oxytocin flowing...Even going outside and inhaling the fragrance of flowers in the breeze is good for that...though inhaling the fragrance of a woman would help too
. But for now, being celibate for a while is a good idea. I need to regain my balance, otherwise I could become an addict of a different kind...
Love and peace. peoples!
Keep on
sniffin'!
Hi
Hi dear friend.
May Marnia's advices helps you. And go on, God is really helping you to be a master of desires, thoughts and actions. He knows what we are passing on and He really take care of us all. He wants strong sons, who loves everyone as a very close friend, as brothers.
I'm fighting too. And sometimes I lose, sometimes I win. But day after day I'm getting stronger, and desires are becoming weak. We are learning to control the creative energy for the good of us all.
Remember Paul (I have to remember too): I can everything in the One that make me stronger" (sorry, I don't know exactly, but is in Filipenses 4:13 in the bible).
God Bless you, your angel too.
jacó
All blessings will be gratefully accepted
Thanks for your kind words of encouragement, jaco. I really need to pray for myself, for others here, and for all of humanity. May we all find, and embody, what is Highest in ourselves. The world needs it (Peace).
.....concert halls!
keep on keeping on Asher. What else is there to do?
Yes the energy is intense.
Go to sleep. That will get you to day three.
then get back to focusing on things you enjoy doing
day by day
one at a time
two in a row - I bet that felt like a real big accomplishment when you woke up on day three!!!!!!!
But it wore off didn't it?
We are "weak" to our desires, they will come - maybe urges is a better word.
But we are strong to avoid them if we CHOOSE TO.
Go to bed.
When you wake up in the morning of day four, you will be proud again like you were on the morning of Day Three - that's a thought worth sleeping on!
-TLR
Episode V:The Empire Strikes Back
Thanks TLR, I did survive day 3, even day 4 (too tired by end of day even to masturbate(!). But last night, on the eve of day 5, I gave in because I just felt so dark. And plain bored. The Light is good, yes but I am in a physical body too. My only hope for long-term sobriety from my PC will be Tantric Love/Karezza etc. (Do not read this next bit if you are struggling today): Cos I'm too physical to give up the bliss of merging into the void of orgasmic pleasure unless I have something to replace it with. What do I have to do? Shall I take up sky-diving? Where else can I get that rush? When they made me it was a strange cocktail..."Let's see now, a dash of healthy-mindedness, a strong desire for the Truth, and lets see...an equally strong sex drive. There! That should make for a crazy life."
But thank you your encouragement because knowing that I DID complete 4 days makes me realize that I can do it again.
I like your proposed solution
...find a goddess and give the karezza approach a try.
And here's something to ponder. According to Chia (Taoist author), the ability to "transmute sexual energy" was once known to all men, and as common as pursuit of orgasm is for us today. That is said to have been a "golden age," of course.
My point is that you're not really denying your physicality to choose another way of managing your sexual energy. It's just not familiar to you...yet.
I'm thinking of that
Rational Recovery site that talks about how the "Beast Brain" *always* just wants what it wants (to meet its short-term urges)...but the poor thing is a paraplegic. It can only get what it wants if we use our arms and legs to serve it. In other words it has no way to get what it wants without our cooperation.
I pictured the poor little thing throwing a tantrum without being able to make anyone watch porn. How very sad....
Well he sent the plague of darkness last night...
Hardly ever fails. And he got his way. I let his people go. Well not really people as such, each one is sort of half a person and there were about 300 million of them. And they had tails. I even gave him a hand with it. (Sorry for using the Exodus symbolism in reverse there.) But I'm picking up myself this morning and starting again. But this time I'm making preparations for when the 'dark mind' returns again. (Agent Bright says: "The old 'get him depressed so he feels hopeless and masturbates' trick'.)