Hi, everyone. I briefly returned to try and help someone I've talked to previously through a rough time. However, it is time for me to go back out again. While there has not been anything that has triggered me here as of yet, I find myself in a very unsettled state and need to take some precautions to prevent any unnecessary wear and tear.

I've now been clean for 45 days. I am currently back at school, trying to get my second degree. Right now, I have found my addiction is managable to the point where I am now very rarely having any kind of sexual thoughts and I very rarely am dealing with anything sexual, which is critical as I attempt to regain that which I lost over the summer. It was very difficult to come back from everything that happened. However, I have successfully managed to do just that, even if it took a lot of energy out of me. Addiction is not something which is conquered in one day, a week, a month, or even one year. It is conquered over a lifetime. It is that goal that I have finally set that I want to reach. I am at this instance not even half way back to where I was. I must get back there to fully reassert who I want to be.

So, we'll see. There's been some weird women issues going on in my life. Strange relations with someone who spends a lot of time around me has left me wondering about what is going on with myself. I have spent a lot of time figuring out how to deal with emotions and thoughts I've never had before, which has added another level of stress upon a very heavy class and work load. As a result, the last few weeks have been difficult at best. Learning to deal with such stress is part of the recovery process, and I hope I am capable. Time will tell. Good luck to all, and see you around.

Lancer