I'm sorry that I underestimated you...

That title goes out to my girlfriend. We lay awake talking deep into the night(more like morning). I don't know why but she seemed to have a whole other level of understanding of what I was trying to do last night. Wich led me into sharing more open heartedly all my reasoning behind my motivation for doing so. I even told her about how my body at times(more frequently then I'll ever admit to) wanted me to go out and have sex with other women. And I explained how this was not what I really wanted but a function of my primitive mind. And also how I believe that making sex all about sharing love instead of a race towards orgasm will make these instinctual cravings for other women diminish. Instead of her shutting down emotionally as would be normal she instead really appreciated that I was making all this effort for the sake of our relationship and her emotions blossomed. This gave me strength to ask if she would be willing to experiment with this different kind of making love and after a bit of talking about it she said yes!

So Marnia if your offer of sending me those exchanges still stands I guess I am ready to accept them way ahead of schedule!