Unusually 'me'

My usual - day after- effects of a moderately heavy social call on a friends involving 2 bottles of wine and some beer, would be a sure downer. Instead, after a long and more than satisfying sleep, void of the mandatory pre shut-eye jerk-off, I woke up so differently from the past. More positive energy, even though I think I have a conventional hangover! What I have noticed is that I don't have the sexual frustration or strong desire to masturbate or look at porn as I thought I would have by abstaining. It also seems that all my current energy and motivation has been redirected into abstaining at the expense of other, what I thought, were more important things like cleaning-up my apartment, which currently resembles the pit of eternal stench. I am thinking much more positively, even though my general life situation hasn't been as bad for quite a while. What shocks me is that I have gone for years without knowing the detrimental effects of compulsive masturbation. Why didn't anyone tell me? A girl-friend I visited yesterday said that she did try but I didn't listen. I realize that at that time, which was 10 years ago, I simply wasn't ready for a new direction in my life. The fight goes on. [blinzel]