Day 1 - again.

A Blog! What a good idea for these experiments. Day 1 of experiment 2. The first experiment ran 19 days. I need to learn more... I feel that physical transformation/transmutation of energy wasn't successful. In fact, I'm beginning to wonder if the whole "energy" model or metaphor is as useful as I'd thought... I'll explain that a little more.

When I'm turned on, and I need to simmer down, I reach up for a cosmic connection, and into the earth for grounding. Even though to some this may seem a bit "New Age," It works. But could this just be because it distracts me from any stimulation images in my head? The same might be said for the muscle contraction up the spine; could they too be distractions.

One of the things I know is true: you can't orgasm when you're relaxed. And you can learn to relax on command. Difficult yes, but not impossible. More practice required!

Since I'm self-practicing, one of the first things I want to do is move my internal sexual imagery toward being more loving and intimate, and less pornographic. So in my mind I'm not having raw sex, but caressing, kissing, romancing. This helps a lot, and tends to lead naturally into being body-centered instead of imagery centered.

That's important. Being body-centered or sensation centered rather than imagery centered.

More about Day 1. When I had an orgasm the other day, I felt, later on in the evening, an unbelievable exhaustion. It was like I'd been punched in the solar plexus a couple of times. I almost thought I was going to slip into a coma. Today, I feel good again I bounced back very quickly. The prostate feels a bit swollen, so I'm really going to concentrate on just taking it easy, and let things settle down.

This morning I felt like I'd lost the mental focused I'd gained; this evening I seem to have bounced back quite quickly. Perhaps that's due in part to a rare cup of coffee this afternoon.

I'm sooo looking forward to writing this blog, and participating in this community! Take care everybody.