Hey everyone, I'm new. Before joining I had read others posts to help me get through this addiction. I started looking at porn early in high school. I had a computer in my room so I always had privacy. After the first few revealing pics, I was hooked. Even typing this now I'm experiencing some cravings...its like a nagging feeling that just won't go away. After viewing porn I started masturbating to it daily. My preferences would change from 'average' porn to the hardcore bondage stuff. (which I now find disturbing...) After school I'd look at porn and masturbate. I didn't know that I had a problem with it. I just knew I always felt tense, my hands were shaking and I'd get an upset stomach. Then I'd feel really "slow" when it came to staying focused. I'd also feel melancholy, even when things were good...I just couldn't figure out why I felt so restless. I had tried to hold off on porn and masturbation for 5 days. I felt a lil better, but as soon as I gave in, I felt ashamed of myself...especially when some kids from school had already had sex or had been in relationships. I became more passive, and felt uneasy in social situations...This happened up til college and just a few years after college. Then I started to abstain from this much more seriously. When abstaining I notice that: I feel more confidence in myself and when approaching women. I'm more aggressive, well more driven to get tasks done at work. My intellect is more sharp, I'm less dull minded. My hands aren't too shakey, my dexterity's well good. I can actually play my guitar without messing up, as much. When dealing with interpersonal conflicts (verbal arguments and the like) I'm more levelheaded. Although sometimes I do snap, I guess that's part of withdrawal. I'm more social at work and outside of work. And I'm more touchy feely with girls I work with. On St. Patty's a coworker wasn't wearing green and I was about to pinch her as she laughed about it. I really just want to return to feeling "normal". The longest I've gone was 5 weeks, and I felt so much better than I do now. I have ADHD so giving in doesn't help me. Since I'm messing up the chemicals in my brain. I had read that the EPA and DHA from fishoil can help curb the symptoms of ADD/ADHD. I've been taking fish oil for a few weeks now, I'd like to see what happens in 12 weeks.