Temptation

Tomorrow will be 3 weeks since I last masturbated. I've only had one tough day that followed a dream where I was looking at porn that I thought I had erased. The glimpse of porn made me really horny in my dream but I couldn't masturbate in time before the scene changed. In reality, I did erase the porn! Anyway, I got through that day and it's been fairly smooth sailing so far.

Part of the reason for this is that I've gotten rid of my computer. I gave it to a friend who lives about 3-3.5 hours away. I'm at the library now and use other peoples computers and my iPhone to do whatever work and surfing I want. No access to porn is my plan. No access, no temptation. Out of sight out of mind. So far so good.

However, I just recently discovered that my iPhone can connect to wifi and in effect I have high speed internet access on my iPhone. Awesome. Until I realized that I can now easily stream porn if I want to. I don't want to but it's an issue now. Smooth sailing has hit a couple of waves. I still think getting rid of the computer was a good idea, since the computer in the basement is probably a cue. I've never searched for porn on the iPhone and plan on keeping it that way. I don't want to create that pathway with this awesome artifact. Psychologically, I feel it's important I don't use the iPhone for porn. Don't create a pathway. It's just that I'm on alert because some alluring signals and even images, which I've ignored, have popped up in my head since I realized that the iPhone (when connected to wifi) can be easily used for porn. Best case scenario is that the realization passes like the dream I had and I continue to ~60 days. So I'm glad to get this inner temptation externalized and off my mind. (BTW, I can't get rid of the wifi in the house without telling people who I don't want to tell what I'm doing. It's a basket of worms I don't want to open.)

Thats my story, thanks for reading.