This is a first, Angry at husband for insisting I orgasm

the last time i had orgasm I held back, I can have an orgasm, and not release the dump of what feels like a dose of a great drug. It feels good, but i can still talk and walk and move around. So the husband was in the mood friday, i tried to deflect and stay up, he stayed up, so its against my nature to deny my man of any pleasure. He performs oral, and it took me some time but I had a controlled nice O. I was good. I told him I was afraid to, that I didn’t want that release. As though I had put him up to a challenge, I swear he was after it. I told him I didn’t want the dose as I don’t like the obsession for more I have the next day. The obsession he wont meet. I tried to back out but I was in my own virtual porn, and I fixed,
Morning came, and gravity found its center under my bed, a friend and her kids coming out for a visit, (we don’t get company) and my house a mess. I woke up hating before my feet hit the floor, I have this pet peeve and its cleaning house while others lounge and do zero. I had asked my husband to help with the house and he woke up and made waffles instead. My cycle is due to start Wednesday, that in itself is a nightmare. Sometime during the day my neck and back begin to tense. This usually only occurs when I am dealing head on with things like custody and his ex wife. So I feel better today but my back and neck still tense, I thought it was rather amusing that I was getting mad at my husband for giving me what I have been crying for well over a year for more of. Marnia it’s a good thing I know somehow you are a great person, otherwise I might think you were some cult leader making me try things I would never have considered . Give up my O’s yeah not before death…

i explained another way to my husband, honey i dont want to have a screaming o, because i want to know if it plays into why i turn into linda blair once a month. He gets it now i think