Anxiety

OK leaving for my trip today.

I know for most it would be no big deal. well this is way out of my comfort zone and the anxiety and stress are high right now.

to put it bluntly I could so just M and O right now for awhile. Not going to though. I have gone far enough along my path to control it.

I can observe myself and how I used M and O to deal with my anxiety and stress my whole life. Now I am training myself on how to deal with those things without M and O or P.

It is interesting to be able to see how my mind wants to deal with this. It just wants to blunt the emotions and feelings with an O. It is just going to have to learn to deal with this sort of thing some other way now.

My oracle on this is very interesting as it usually is. I think it knows me well by now.

What is holding me back or causing me pain?
IMPATIENCE

Is there something I need to be alert to in my situation?
INDOLENCE

What insight will help me at this time?
LIGHTEN UP

That last one just makes me laugh. How the @##@ does it know to say such things :). Again as I keep saying I do not even question its ability to tell me what I need to hear.

Wishing everyone well
Be Safe
James