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Well, what can I say! I'm at around day 4 of complete abstinence, zero porn, or masturbation, and no nocturnal emissions yet. I used to be a 3 month at a time complete abstainer, and I had nocturnal emissions regularly in intervals of 2 or 3 weeks. Recently I've been indulging in the pleasures of online adult XXX rated joy, but it has left me drained, so to speak. ;) I feel the power in me growing stronger by the day, and yes I love it! The gift of virtue is one of ethereal power in all its grace. I've started to write more, and I desire to take on more challenging literary works as reading material. I don't want to sound like an abstinence pusher, but the feeling of being a more pure being that isn't shackled to the confines of all things flesh, is profoundly intense to say the least. I wish to rise to that lofty elevation of blissful beatific excellence that is worth the sacrifice of pleasure, and the reward is of something more akin to spiritual ecstasy. I write, and I like to read as well, so the redirecting of my libido into a cathexes of the mind is my goal. I wish not to come across as the cardinal of anti-carnal desires, but I will say once again that there is something greater then the flesh that one is imprisoned in. Feel free to comment, if you so desire. Cheers!
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I totally understand
where you're coming from. I'm working on the same thing myself, to be free from the slavery of sex addiction and to use my energy in a more constructive manner. Freedom is a beautiful thing.
Lots of love
Courage
Good to hear that you are
Good to hear that you are seeing the benefits of removing porn/masturbation out of your life. Its such a small sacrifice in comparison to the benefits.
Courage is knowing what not to fear.
-Plato
Hi J
Are you in a relationship or on your own? This site was originally ;-) about the struggle to apply the ideas *within* relationship. Have you tried that, too?
Too bad your site is the
Too bad your site is the only cogent site that offers information on the effects of porn/orgasm. I guess youre stuck with us lonely shades drawn porn addicts :)
Most of the other sites are christian based and I dont need any of that crazy-making.
Thanks again for the site and support Marnia, you have a lot to offer us here.
Courage is knowing what not to fear.
-Plato
True Jrsun
But then again we're all potential future Karezza practitioners ;)
Ha ha!
That's right. "The glass is half full." :-)
Actually, it has been great having you guys here. Besides, all of us have been single at some point in our lives, and most of us have struggled with tough challenges, so you're not actually that "special." ;-)
We are lovers in the making
We are lovers in the making trying to sort out all our garbage. Id like to meet a karezza practitioner who hasnt gone through big struggles at some point.
Courage is knowing what not to fear.
-Plato
@ Marnia: I'm single, have
@ Marnia: I'm single, have been for years.
@ JRsun76: Thanks for the motivation, and remember that all souls have the potential to be pure souls.
@ Courage: The phenomena you're referring to is the sublimation of socially questionable behaviour into a more productive acceptable behaviour.
Thanks for the replies guys! :)
So,
any thoughts about maybe sharing yourself with a sweetheart? Could be the next step, you know. Sounds like you'll be able to get back in balance pretty easily, as you've done it before. Tried any online dating sites?
I can't help thinking of all those women who would love a companion, whose companions have been glued to computer screens for a while. Gotta put in a plug for them now and again. ;-)
The reply.
I’ve done the internet dating, I went on a few dates, and I still use it periodically (not the biggest fan). But I spend a lot of time in the swimming pool, and gym, so I socialize there. I recently made friends with a woman close to my age, (30 something), but she’s married, she drove me home once, and we communicate online and socialize in the hot tub. I’m a little nervous because I find her attractive, and all I need is a jealous husband disrupting my happiness. We’re just friends, but I don’t know. I’d like to find a single woman who is cool, but I also like being like a monk, so it’s a case of sexual ambivalence I guess. All I know is that if I was left alone with this woman, and she came on to me, then I wouldn’t be able to control myself. Women friends have told me that my best bet is to meet someone like me in the gym. A running group would also work because I like to run, and I just started running again today. Who knows!
All life is sorrowful and the world is an ever burning fire, so enjoy the stately dance of the mystic bliss beyond pain, for that is at the heart of every mythic rite.
What about asking her
if she has any sweethearts she thinks you might be compatible with? She's be flattered...and less likely to cheat, perhaps. ;-)
The response
She already ran that scenario and told me that all her friends are married.
All life is sorrowful and the world is an ever burning fire, so enjoy the stately dance of the mystic bliss beyond pain, for that is at the heart of every mythic rite.
Hmmm...
Well, I guess the mystic dance will just have to carry you where you need to be. Just keep your eyes peeled, 'kay? ;-)