My tags, bpd

I found this via a link via seekers blog,

individuals with BPD can be very sensitive to the way others treat them, reacting strongly to perceived criticism or hurtfulness. Their feelings about others often shift from positive to negative, generally after a disappointment or perceived threat of losing someone. Self-image can also change rapidly from extremely positive to extremely negative. Impulsive behaviors are common, including alcohol or drug abuse, unsafe sex, gambling and recklessness in general.[14] Attachment studies suggest individuals with BPD, while being high in intimacy- or novelty-seeking, can be hyper-alert[9] to signs of rejection or not being valued and tend toward insecure, avoidant or ambivalent, or fearfully preoccupied patterns in relationships.[15] They tend to view the world generally as dangerous and malevolent, and tend to view themselves as powerless, vulnerable, unacceptable and unsure in self-identity.[9]

it's strange because I have always ruled out BPD, yet today I really relate to this, except for the fighting
or physical aggressive feature. The jury is still out on my bipolar diagnosis, 1 doc agreeing the other not. I fight any because I don't need to be any more convinced that I am "broken" "sick" or not like society says I should be. I am toota aware. I feel and think too F'n much! I go from feeling it's a curse to a gift. Balance is hard. I wanted help they filled me with pills and counseling and clean livin, only to hate to wake up. Off all but one, med now, I no longer welcome death nor do I dread each day