End of Day 5, OCD symptoms, attraction from women

My OCD is seriously making me worry over alot of things. I had trouble sleeping while dealing with some thought that wouldn't go away, I wake up and there it is. OCD is normal for me after a relapse, its amazing how it manifests itself. I've been feeling alot more social and whatnot but I'm still neurotic. I still have a tendency to 'check' things or to ruminate over a certain thought, no matter how odd the logic behind it may seem. I've had some mood swings, but the poor me feeling is no longer here. I do still deal with the internal repressed baggage, and it ain't pretty. Alot of pain that really cuts deep. I mean I'm there at work and I feel like crying, thinking about the past. I end up thinking about how my kid doesn't have that happy homelife with both parents. But at the same time I know I can't blame myself, a part of me does and a part of me is like "its not your fault"...again that's something I had repressed... That's one of the reasons I want to beat this thing too...I want to be my son's hero. I feel like a loser when I give into porn. Through all of that mental clamor....I'm able to retain a positive attitude and carry on at work. Onto Good news, I got a girl's number. I went out with a new friend and another girl showed interest in me later that night. Two girls in the same day! Lol, I'm bringin' sexy back. Oh yeah, another friend of mine tried to show me some porn on his phone, I was totally disinterested. I just laughed and mocked the pictures telling him, "you're silly man." My urges are still there but I'm not feeling overwhelmed by them. If anything they are a small annoyance at the moment. I've been doing alot of self improvement lately, I sing, I speak louder I just let myself go. I try to have good posture, hold my head up. I go out socializing and even when I'm intimidated I still make effort. I'm proud of myself for trying to better myself. Porn just really isn't on my mind. I'm too busy looking at and talking to real women, than to bother with porn.