Ok last time I masturbated was July 24th at 5:53pm, it's not july 25th 9:53pm. So I have 1 day and 4 hours down, this is day 2. I remembered day two through four being the hardest..
I meditated a little earlier and feel extremely dizzy, when i went to stand up from that. Not sure if its from meditation, and sitting for a while or, no porn... anyways, I definately feel an extra amount of energy then I normally feel, usually I just orgasm, and then I'm all relaxed. but right now im not and since I cant do that, I continue to feel jittery. I took a cold shower a little bit ago and it helped, I'm not feeling any urge for orgasm, but I don't feel right, right now.
I'm drinking some lipton green tea(I heard it supposed to help out with headaches). and it's making me feel a little bit better. As I'm writing this right now my brain feels like unfocused, and I keep zoning out as I write this.
I'm going to take some sleeping pills soon, because I have found through plenty of personal research, that my weakest time is after midnight. those last couple of hours that i just lag around and dont have much to do but im not tired is when im most succeptible to porn.
Also another weak point for me is right when I wake up. I didn't have a problem this morning, but I will avoid any possibility tommorow by getting out of the bed and hoping into a quick shower.
My goal currently is to get 8 days in the bag as painless as possible. im most likely going to take sleep-aids most of the nights so I don't stay up too late. From my personal discovery I have found out at about the 8 day mark, (for me). My body is no longer in sexual crave mode. and I feel like my brain knows masturbation doesn't lead to orgasm, so I either won't get excited at all. or i will but it wont lead to anything.
That's currently the point im hoping to get to, because once your body stops craving it, it becomes that much easier. I currently have already been very depressed because of financial problems, and familial problems, and I feel this would give me back the appreciation of life again, and get rid of that dull feeling after I just masturbated to orgasm.
I have also realized in the past when I was avoiding porn, I was doing way more things with the family, whenever anyone was going somewhere and asked me if I wanted to go I always accepted, it was good in multiple ways, one i was bonding with my family members more and two i was avoiding watching porn all day.
I can say when I dont masturbate, I feel more "alive" and "fresh". i feel dead on the inside when I masturbate. but when I don't, I feel like so happy and I noticed people around me noticed.