Finishing 3rd week without Porn

The weekend was very happening. We went to a BBQ party at my friends home and enjoyed the evening with fun and games. I could see that socialisation helps me a lot to come out of this addiction fast.

I never had any other thoughts other than enjoying the fun and jokes in the party. Only thing that distracted me was the images displayed in the huge television my friend had, it was a cartoon channel, but later someone turned it off and that also had gone. By the way I have stopped watching television too. Spending a lot of time in learning to draw. I went out like a child last week and gathered feathers to keep as model for my drawing lessons. It was fun, I never saw so many feathers in the garden behind my office before as I was not aware of it.

Last week I had insomnia and woke up in the middle of the night, as I was trying to be aware of the dreams. Finally my wife made me realise that I shouldn't think of it and let the sleep come naturally and so i went to sleep. In the early morning I got dreams of myself having steamy sex with my wife after watching some sex video. I got up hurriedly realising that and not to ejaculate in dream. I could realise the problem and didnt allow myself to go into guilt cycle.

This sunday was fabulous as I spent the whole day with my wife, bonding. We tried karezza again, the session went for about 3 hours in which we exchanged healing energy between us. We went to passion cycle few times but became aware of it and came back to give love. It was very soothing and caring for both of us. No guilt or pain and no orgasm for me.
I noticed that I couldn't take junk anymore, I even tried staring at the chips(crisps) bag in the vending machine for sometimes, but didn't like it. Chocolate is still my favourite, but I could postpone the chocolate crave to a later time.

Tomorrow will be the end of my 3rd week without porn..

Until next time.. take care..