Day 19

Submitted by Patientfaith07 on Tue, 2010-08-10 10:31
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Day 19.

I seem to be pushing the boundaries closer and closer to the cliff. Last night i went to the store with all intention of relapsing and being fine with it. When i went to check out i just got the overwhelming fear and doubt about relapse and i basically put everything i was going to buy down and pretty much ran out of the store. One day at a time.

Today has been a decent day so far. Not having much to occupy my time while waiting for job interviews has been troublesome but i've found ways of distracting myself. Money is still a stress and not being able to be sociable an go out with friends without money has made this harder, cause i don't have a new hobby yet and i seem to have to much time to dwell on my withdrawal symptoms and fear of relapsing. I've made it this far, gotta keep going!!

Comments

Submitted by ineedstrength on Tue, 2010-08-10 11:36.

You could still hang out with friends, even if you don't have money right now. You could maybe have a get together at a friend's house. You could make a list of things you'd like to try out for hobbies. You could start reading a book or find a local gym and exercise. I'm just making a few suggestions. I know that keeping myself preoccupied, helps me a whole lot.

Submitted by Brick.2nd.GiG on Tue, 2010-08-10 14:31.

I agree--keeping preoccupied with exercise helps a great deal. Being with friends at their residences helps with the money problem. Maybe you could find some poor friends and keep the rich / psmileyigate ones in reserve until the money situation improves. And if you do manage to make some poverty-stricken friends, then you'll have a knowledgeable network if the money situation fails to dramatically improve over the medium term. Poor people are often extremely resourceful (I'm not talking about the tobacco-addicted nascar wife-batterers here), and typically more likely to know someone who makes moonshine.