Day 3

Submitted by Pertonis on Fri, 2010-08-13 16:03
Community topics: 
Healing Relationships
recovery
abstinence
masturbation
challenge
compulsive

The third day! I feel like I'm making process, one little step at a time. I feel stronger in my fortitude to move away from this type of lifestyle, so I can finally live my dreams. Porn and unhealthy sexuality is preventing me from doing that.

Here's my update:

*Low Dopamine: 0,08
*High Dopamine: 2,4
*Relationship disharmony: 1,92

So my mood was much better today. I have been really active also! Felt really motivated to get learn more and experience more of my dreams. I am also understanding how unhealthy our culture(the worlds) is with sex and sexuality. It really is setting up a good ground for perversion to grow. I want to research that more!

No more for now...
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Comments

Submitted by arborrider10 on Fri, 2010-08-13 21:38.

I too am also on day 3 of not being able to view any porn. I installed k-9 and my friend has the password. So if want to look at porn i have to either ask him for the password or i have to click forgot password and have k-9 email a new password at which point i can view porn.
So knowing this, and almost clicking ok, i remember a video i saw on youtube titled your brain on porn
it was very helpful and puts alot in perspective...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tl7NAwOSgA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tl7NAwOSgA&feature=related

As to my day 3. It is somewhat of a victory because i havent toally abstained from acting out sexually. I have looked at porn star swim suit pics to get off. But at least it isnt porn is what iam thinking. I am not going to tonight and slowly try to remove masturbating for a habitual thing as well. But right now my focus is on masturbating to soft core, nudity, or hardcore porn.
As for what iam feeling, well i kinda of feel shity. Tired, Stressed, lonely. But my logic is telling me this is only temporarily what will be felt, things will get beter.

Submitted by Pertonis on Sun, 2010-08-15 16:16.

I'm feeling soooooooooooo tired these days and I've been crazy busy these latest days.

I hope you keep going... It's so important that men/women find their true strength and true sexuality in this society of sex and shame (the duality that no one can fight against).

Don't hesitate to PM me if you feel like you want some support or someone to talk to :)

With hopes and encouragement
Pertonis