Day 9, Is it just me or am I becoming more bold?

Over the past week I've been able to say "Hi" to women. Or make small talk with them. Now usually I'd be too afraid. And I don't use any pickup method (just doesn't work for me), I'm all about being natural. (which works quite well) So today I'm just dressed in shirt and jeans, nothin' special. And I see this really pretty girl on the other side of the street all dolled up. Well she was waiting for the same bus and came over to my side, after seeing it. Now I think she's cute but, I just act like I'm not interested. So we get off the bus and I'm like "Waiting on such and such bus?" and she nods. Its hot so I roll up the sleeves of my shirt, which reveals my tattoos. I saw her looking from the corner of my eye. But, I just leave it alone, well we get on the bus and she sneezes lol. So I smile and say "Allergies?" she smiled back and said "No I have a cold" , I'm like "That sucks" she's like "Yeah." I say "I have year round allergies" and we trade words until i run out of things to say, my mind literally went blank. This was a spur of the moment thing, so its ok. (spontaneous is fun!) I feel more comfortable with approaching a girl and I feel better just being me.

Someone at work told me that another girl thought I was really cute. And I have not met this girl yet, but I will! lol I don't know what it is but I do find that women appear to be more attracted to me. Maybe I'm being crazy but I can see hints and subtle cues that I didn't notice before. That and a female friend at work told me I was cute. I also feel that I'm changing. I'm more bold and a bit less inhibited when speaking with people, whether making a dirty joke or stating my honest opinion. Now onto my symptoms, cravings are very small. They do come up but I just watch something online or play a game or do something to occupy the time. I do get periods of depression but I also get feelings of contentment, like I don't care about mundane things. I've also been pretty serious about studying martial arts, its become a spiritual journey for me in a sense. I took a kung fu class today and loved it, and will probably take it in the future if my money's right. I've been able to set a time when I can see my son, communication with my ex's family is somewhat better. Communication with her is better. I've been busy with working and spending time with my lil' guy for the most part. When thinking of porn, I just don't feel anything and I don't need to test myself to see if I'm still effected. There's no reason for that. That lil' voice in my head was making that suggestion. That thought comes every now and then, its weak but its not dead yet. Talking to cute girls is more thrilling than watching the latest dopamine disregulating porn scene.