Well its been 1 whole week, and I am very proud of my accomplishments. But man.. I wanna have sex, I have a couple girls around me that want to have sex with me, and I would love to par-take.. but I keep juggling between doing the 8 weeks of PMO.. and just saying.. EFF it.. and just do it!! lol.. but in all honesty i wanna do it.. like bad! but I am at a crossroads here, because I want the whole 8 weeks to revive my mind.. I never want to return to P or M.. but after my 8 week stretch, I would like to engage in frequent intercourse!! I will continue to fight the urges of giving in, but If I do, I do.. there is only so much I can do; Mentally. It is very draining to my mind, and makes my anxiety threw the roof.. I know going 8 weeks without PMO will be the right thing too do. And I am going to stick by it!! I am so glad I finally made it to week 1 again!! I am learning many things about myself.. and learning how to trust in my own faith.. I know that I am all over the place, n this blog! ahhh.. Overall I am just taking this whole process day by day.. and my over all goal is to beat my addiction to P and M.. I don't enjoy neither and I want to break these chains of PM addiction!!