So I was hanging out with my girlfriend today and we were laying on her bed in her room (you can already see where this is going >.>
. So we were just talking and I asked her if she wanted a massage. She was in her underwear and a t-shirt, so she took the shirt off and I gave her a massage. After I was finished she asked me to finger her. So I did my thing, no problems. But by the time I was finished I realized I crossed that barrier and before I could get a mental grip and stop it, I ejaculated in my pants. It's been like 3 weeks - 1 month since my last ejaculation, which was pretty much borne out of the same situation. I can't help but feel extremely guilty about this, and instead of relishing in the feeling and the afterglow, all I can think about is how this is going to affect my reboot. I really hope this doesn't prolong it too much, because I'm at my wits end with this and I need to come out the other side soon or I might go crazy.
I need some input.
-_-
To clarify, I had a pretty weak erection until I was about to ejaculate, where it hardened considerably. I don't think that's completely normal, as I'd imagine a person who is completely healed would be able to sustain a full erection for more than a couple of seconds.
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Mex-Tex:
Not sure what your goal is, but I'm on Day 165. And I have had several orgasms with my wife and it doesn't bother me one bit. Remember, you were with your girlfriend, you were enjoying each other. You did not masturbate. You did not masturbate to porn. You were with the girl you love and care about - big difference in my book.
Of course you need to watch and see how the "after shock" affects you. In the meantime, continue on with your outstanding run of 120 Days plus!!
Fight on! Refuse to Lose!!
pcb
I'm on day 115ish, i
I'm on day 115ish, i wouldn't have thought that would really set you back much at all? Maybe for a couple of days but you haven't really reawakened any old porn pathways.
Hell I'd look at that as a
Hell I'd look at that as a VICTORY not a defeat!! [tanz] You got proof possitive that you are VERY turned on by a real woman. Thats a normal healthy pathway that is obviously working well. What makes you think you aren't rebooted? Was your erection good? If it was I think its time for Johnny to come out and play. [blinzel] Unless of course you wanted to try for the life long monk thing [schock] I could be wrong, I'm sure Marnia will have a good answer for you.
Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential.
Winston Churchill
My erection was around 60%
My erection was around 60% strength, but right before I orgasmed it got around to 90-100%. My penis would react this way to ejaculation before I started my reboot though so I'm not so sure this means I'm okay.
Yeah no I definitely realize
Yeah no I definitely realize that I'm heading in the right direction with this. My erection was very weak though, until right before I came, which is how my penis has responded even before I started my reboot.
I'm just getting a little frustrated. 120 days is a long time.
On Halloween, you should
On Halloween, you should wear ONLY pants, and when someone asks what you are for Halloween, you should say, "I came in my pants." Just kidding.
I wouldn't sweat the O one bit! I've never come like that without any physical stimulation. I'd say you are doing damn well on your reboot.
Um, what's the problem? You
Um, what's the problem? You have a girlfriend you seem to be enjoying. You got an erection to the point of ejaculation with her, AND you managed to ejaculate without stimulation from your hand.
You're pretty much at the point most people here want to one day reach. It's not a failure.
Just one question: did you
Just one question: did you have an erection before you came? If so, then I would say you've rewired yourself to the real thing right?
Yes I did, but it was very
Yes I did, but it was very weak.
Maybe
it's time to make love, as slowly and sensuously as the two of you can do it. Minimal movement. I think you're farther along than you think, and I think a few lovemaking sessions will show you that.
Penises aren't just for show you know. They're built for action. [hamster]
Alright. I trust in your
Alright. I trust in your opinion. Next opportunity I get I'll try it out. Don't know when that'll be though. o.o
Let us know how it goes
Remember...no performance pressure. Just let your penis do whatever it wants or doesn't want to do. Your job is to stay relaxed and focused on her, and on how good you feel. It may take a few sessions to prime the pump.
Let us know how things go.
*big hug*