Submitted by Sierra on Wed, 2012-01-18 12:07
Im completely amazed that I haven't M/O for 10 days. I have fantasy playing on auto in the back of my mind today and want to M/O, however I want to recover from my self induced brain damage more 
I read about the impacts on children today who are growing up around porn films, I really relate. I had some of the same behaviours when I was a child that I haven't understood as an adult. (Other kids my age were not as aggressive or sexually aware as I was) Its a relief to be able to start making sense of so many things through being HERE.
Submitted by MexicanTexican on Mon, 2011-11-14 15:47
So I tried jerking it the other day. Figured it's been at LEAST 4 months (beginning to think it's been like 5) since I last PMO'd, so I sat in the shower and tried getting it up. So I tried fantasizing about normal stuff and I was stroking my junk, but I ended up not being able to do it. In hindsight, I think I might have been putting too much pressure on myself. Gotta stop thinking about performance. But after a while I started talking dirty and stuff and when I realized I was doing this, I was sort of appalled at myself so I got out of the shower and tried to forget about it.
Submitted by DRHLOC on Wed, 2011-09-14 19:35
Sept. 12, 2011 (Day 3 no porn, Day 0 no M+O):
I had caffeine late today and could NOT fall asleep for an hour, so I resorted to M+O (after 2 days abstaining)... Let's see how I feel tomorrow.
I have noticed that tiredness definitely makes me much more vulnerable to masturbating and using porn. Self-control diminishes as we get tired. I'm working on noticing when I feel really unusually horny, but am really just tired and need to sleep.
Sept 13, 2011 (Day 4 no porn, Day 1 no M+O):
Submitted by TheGeneral on Thu, 2011-09-01 18:13
Submitted by TheGeneral on Sat, 2011-08-27 14:07
Hey everyone,
its day 3, I am doing okay, I still get urges to MB...and it seems like I have mood swings. The OCD is still as strong as ever, I get spikes alot now. But my question is, is there anybody who has a similar story like mine and recovered after rebooting? Feel free to leave me a link. Much Appreciated.
-TheGeneral
Submitted by TheGeneral on Fri, 2011-08-26 08:16
Submitted by imnotcoming on Mon, 2011-07-04 12:22
Hi, my name is imnotcoming. I've been lurking here for a few months and reading my copy of Cupid's Poisoned Arrow. I have decided to start a blog at wordpress rather than here, because it's more a of a writing project for me, but I'll be participating in the forums, too.
Thanks, Marnia and Gary, for this material. This is the most important thing I've read in the past few years. I'm much more optimistic about my dating future now.
Submitted by couldnine on Thu, 2010-07-29 01:17
Not going too well. Every sexual relationship I have had has become fodder for my mind. I still look at porn and don't want to, but, there you go. I think it's been five days without 'fulfillment' and my mind is in the gutter perpetually. Anywhere I go I attempt not to gawk at women but can't really seem to figure it out. It's not that I want to give up, but at times it just difficult to get past the thought that no matter what I'll be lusting after women. I know they say it fades, but does it really?
Submitted by Ahab on Thu, 2009-07-30 09:30
Yesterday my prostate gave me a hard time. I had often the feeling that I had to pee. I went home from the office early as I had trouble sitting still in my chair, in doubt what to do. On one hand I really want to succeed in not masturbating any more, on the other hand I don't want to make this into a tortue. Wasn't sexuality supposed to be enjoyable? I was in limbo.
Submitted by Ahab on Tue, 2009-07-28 08:10
I'm doing pretty well these days and I'm surprised about the ease about it. My mood is good, I feel more driven and outgoing and last weekend I had a ton of fun (and flirts) with a few women who I met on a weekend retreat. It was so good to actually connect with them, and they liked it too. It really makes me want to go out on dates again, so I know what to do now 
On the other hand I sometimes fall down in a deep abyss of despair. I can deal fairly well with that and it won't last that long. I guess that more intense emotions, both positive and negative, are just part of the process.
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