wet dream

I posted this as a comment to my original thread http://www.reuniting.info/node/9604. Not 100% sure on the correct procedure.

Last night was good.

I gave my wife a massage. First time we've done just that with no sex to follow or with intention of doing it as foreplay. Felt very good and relaxed. I felt horny at points, but it was nice just to roll with it.

It was weird. First I was being choked out by a police officer (can't remember why), then I was sitting next to this attractive girl. There was no kissing involved, she was just rubbing her fingers up and down my leg. And then BOOM. Woke up with a surprise. Wonder what this means exactly.

This is day 120 porn and masturbation free.

Many wet dreams (16 to be more precise, days 9, 22, 30, 40, 49, 50, 60, 66, 67, 71, 77, 83, 84, 93, 103, 120). Yea, it happened tonight, I was dreaming of some girl who was 'the girl which discharges my seed' (ridiculous). The last stretch was the longest: 17 days. My penis is uber sensitive, any kind of stimulus (like tight underwear) and I wake up in a pool.

Returning to Reuniting after vacationing and a hiatus, and a few relapses. Everything was great for about 60 days after starting my reboot, and then I had several relapses of searching for porn, often after a random trigger or thought. I haven’t MO'ed, but as Marnia reminded me a while ago, just the act of viewing and searching is a relapse. I had thought I was “cured”, but I know realize I am vulnerable when I get complacent. I installed K9 to block image searches and suspect sites.

I guess after a month of no sexual activity at all my subconscious had had enough and I had a wet dream. The only thing that sucks about it is that I was so deeply asleep that I don't remember the dream. I was robbed! Then I got that familiar thought that I deserve a "conscious" orgasm now that it's happened already. This is a wrong headed approach because in the past that has led me to acting out....therefore I need to just continue as I have up until now.

I had my first wet dream last night. I was masturbating and ejaculated in my dream. Then I was with a girl. Anyways I ejaculated in my dream and was distraught, looking for the wet spots in the bed that I'd have to clean. They were huge. When I actually woke up I saw I had a wet dream. No spots to clean on the bed thankfully.

Last night I had a wet dream. This past Thursday was the 8 week mark from my last orgasm. My wife and I just came back from a week long beach vacation during which we had sex almost every day, sometimes 3 or 4 times a day! These were wonderful experiences that were really different than what we have achieved so far- full body rushes with almost 0 movement, very little stimulation for very large feelings, very long, lazy sessions that were highly fulfilling.

Last night, I had what I think was a wet dream.