masturbate

This is my 15th day without pmo and I decided to masturbate without porn to see if I could O.

I noticed my erection was at around 80% hard and my sensitivity was increased. The technique I used to not fantasise was, I stared and focused on my ceiling with my mind blank. I continued to masturbate without fantasy, it took around 3 minutes then I had an orgasm. The load i shot was more powerful and bigger than i've had in a while. However I do now have a headache.

So I tried jerking it the other day. Figured it's been at LEAST 4 months (beginning to think it's been like 5) since I last PMO'd, so I sat in the shower and tried getting it up. So I tried fantasizing about normal stuff and I was stroking my junk, but I ended up not being able to do it. In hindsight, I think I might have been putting too much pressure on myself. Gotta stop thinking about performance. But after a while I started talking dirty and stuff and when I realized I was doing this, I was sort of appalled at myself so I got out of the shower and tried to forget about it.

I loathe being so outward with my privacy, but I’ll post this nonetheless. Last night I had a wet dream, and when I woke up I didn’t view porn or masturbate, and that was one of my insecure fears. Well, I’ve seemed to have conquered this demon. I feel good writing this and sharing it with this anonymous online community. Good day all!

All life is sorrowful and the world is an ever burning fire, so enjoy the stately dance of the mystic bliss beyond pain, for that is at the heart of every mythic rite.