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SICAS: Orange - 4

I've been seriously distracting myself for the last few days in order to counter the intensity (usually "Red - 5") of my impulses. Nevertheless, I have still managed to find some time to fantasize about some rather complex scenarios--though I have stopped mid-thought a number of times. Anyway, I have not masturbated, I have not used porn, I have not orgasmed. But my initial concerns about my ability to fantasize have proven to be well-placed, I think. In the past, this kind of fantasizing has usually led to my seeking out cyber-sex chat partners in short order.