shower

So I tried jerking it the other day. Figured it's been at LEAST 4 months (beginning to think it's been like 5) since I last PMO'd, so I sat in the shower and tried getting it up. So I tried fantasizing about normal stuff and I was stroking my junk, but I ended up not being able to do it. In hindsight, I think I might have been putting too much pressure on myself. Gotta stop thinking about performance. But after a while I started talking dirty and stuff and when I realized I was doing this, I was sort of appalled at myself so I got out of the shower and tried to forget about it.

SICAS: 4 - Orange

I'm tired. It's been a very busy day. I've managed to stay too busy to be able to masturbate. (This was actually by design.) It's a full moon. Those are usually bad days for me, so I was trying to ensure that I had enough to do that I didn't turn to porn out of frustration. It was still a bad day. I had a conflict with a friend.

I did briefly fondle myself in the shower while fantasizing. But I didn't let it go very far and got out quickly when I realized that I was headed in that direction.