I am desperately trying to recover from past pornography addiction. Unfortunately, porn has wired itself deep into my brain from an early age. I was late- twelve when I discovered Internet pornography. Over a span of maybe three months, I started out with soft core to the most extreme of hard core porn. This addiction had lasted into early age 13. I am 21 now, and I have been flatlining ever since. I have been flirting with porn off and on over the past 2 and a half years.

I feel all though i have cut the porn and masturbation out of my life, i dont deserve a pat on the back bc i was 'forced' to make the decision. I started abusing porn and (myself) a few years ago and did it with such frequency that i messed up my libido. I have had little to no sexual urge for about two years. Out of desperation and fear i continued this vicious cycle throughout this "grey period" one to reassure myself i could still function and two to possibly bring myself back around. Unfortunately i am uneducated on this subject and it appears i might have made it worse.