challenge

I'm back!

Today, I'm feeling so incredibly tired. My head feels like it is too small for my brain. My eyes and forehead feel especially bloated and hard to move my eyes. I feel like I could sleep until tomorrow.

My dopamine report:

*Low Dopamine: 2,15
*High Dopamine: 2,10
*Relationship disharmony: 1,58

Again an update, but only dopamine update. Have been intensely busy the latest days, so as soon as I can, I will blog more about my experience and my techniques that have worked for me! I'll be back soon!

But my dopamine report:
*Low Dopamine: 0,92
*High Dopamine: 0,3
*Relationship disharmony: 1,58

Pertonis

An update of my dopamine following:

*Low Dopamine: 0,54
*High Dopamine: 0,8
*Relationship disharmony: 2,42

Pertonis

The third day! I feel like I'm making process, one little step at a time. I feel stronger in my fortitude to move away from this type of lifestyle, so I can finally live my dreams. Porn and unhealthy sexuality is preventing me from doing that.

Here's my update:

*Low Dopamine: 0,08
*High Dopamine: 2,4
*Relationship disharmony: 1,92

I'm back!

My results for my second day are:
*Low Dopamine: 3,62 <
*High Dopamine: 0,4
*Relationship disharmony: 4 <
<(out of 4 mind you)

Everything just went to hell. But it was good. I was falling into the old habit of hiding away emotionally, running away from myself. I started to project this onto my girlfriend and she didn't understand anything I was saying(as it was not making any sense), in the end she broke down and then I broke down. I realized that I have always been trying to build a 10story building but without any base, no firm self-esteem.

Day 1!

I did not feel very inspired to blog today. But I pushed my self and decided I would at least write a few lines. I also thought it would inspire me to do my daily dopamine checkup. Now I have done that and the results aare:

*Low Dopamine: 1,31
*High Dopamine: 0,7
*Relationship disharmony: 3,08

I have felt quite calm today. Not any strong urges for masturbation or porn. That's perhaps understandable as I had a relapse not one day ago, so I am still motivated from that recent experience and have decided to use this outlet to keep me motivated.

Hey guys, today is not the official start of the 60 day challenge since I said to myself that I wanted to start it when I wake up. Just going to write about some strategies I am consider doing to implement throughout the challenge, and hopefully they will carry over after the challange. I believe it is important to have at least some plan for tackling this. Many of us have come to the point where we find ourselves with a sex addiciton which we have struggled and failed countless times to overcome.