Submitted by kurisu on Sun, 2012-02-05 19:47
A few days ago, I emailed Scholar Girl, as mentioned in my previous blog. It was just a harmless "how's it going" kind of email. No response.
I am a little bit sad. I thought she and I were becoming good friends. But now, to make a long story short, it is starting to look like she only used me as a shoulder to cry on, and dropped me like a piece of garbage once I was no longer necessary. Really, she has made zero effort to convince me otherwise.
Submitted by kurisu on Mon, 2012-01-23 20:42
For my last couple of relapses, I feel like I've somehow been spared the usual withdrawal symptoms. It's only Day 3 but I am having a surprisingly good day. Maybe it helps that my relapses have been few and far between compared to the past--less dopamine abuse, fewer adverse effects?
Submitted by kurisu on Fri, 2012-01-20 22:56
This one really sucks.
As I wrote in my last blog, Scholar Girl de-friended me on facebook. Now, we all know that's not really that big of a deal. It could have been for any number of benign reasons. Knowing that, did I respond to this development in an objective and mature way?
NO.
Submitted by kurisu on Mon, 2012-01-16 20:52
Hi everybody,
Scholar Girl, the woman I've been chatting with for awhile now, has de-friended me on facebook. Facebook was our means of communication. I am a mess. It sounds so immature for a 30-year-old, but it's true. I really can't handle these kinds of things. I don't know how not to make this be about me (which it probably isn't). I even thought we were becoming good friends.
Submitted by kurisu on Sat, 2012-01-14 22:11
Hey everybody. I hope your recoveries/journeys are all going well. Today is the first day in awhile that I've been able to think with a clear(er) head. In an effort to not be a total loner, I think I'll share some of those thoughts here.
Submitted by freedom on Fri, 2012-01-13 12:00
I’m reasonably good at getting some initial interest from others in me. However, it often doesn’t get to a second interaction or to a first interaction if we initially met online.
Submitted by Leir on Tue, 2011-07-05 05:26
Hey everybody!
I’m Leir. A 19-years old, somewhere between a boy and a man.
So, Marnia allowed me to start a blog. I already have one blog in Portuguese, one that I let it aside since the HOCD started. Somehow, I feel that it must be aside for now.
How I got here? The story is a bit long, but you can find it in my old thread, “Walking the Hell”. In a pretty rough overview, it’s a situation that concerns teenage sexuality, relationships and mind problems.
Submitted by freedom on Sat, 2011-01-08 13:04
Do we talk about shame too much and not enough about loneliness? It could be that we have oversubscribed to the toxic shame theory when that is at most only a component of addiction and interpersonal relationship troubles.
Submitted by couldnine on Thu, 2010-07-29 01:17
Not going too well. Every sexual relationship I have had has become fodder for my mind. I still look at porn and don't want to, but, there you go. I think it's been five days without 'fulfillment' and my mind is in the gutter perpetually. Anywhere I go I attempt not to gawk at women but can't really seem to figure it out. It's not that I want to give up, but at times it just difficult to get past the thought that no matter what I'll be lusting after women. I know they say it fades, but does it really?
