It seems like I've been searching for more weird and obscure porn. I don't know, things I would never look at. Anyway, I feel like I'm sort of going to get the hang of this if I can keep my mind generally occupied on healthy things. I don't know if goals work, I have set many goals and never look into them again, for decades even. I get inspired and so that's not going to work. The meditation, I've got to keep with the meditation, and reading. I'm reading this book about a rock star, and the guy has sex and does drugs pretty much the entire time. That's his whole life.