unhealthy patterns returning

Long time for The Long Run

Submitted by thelongrun on

Hi folks,
I'm back. Need to be.
Noticing I left of "clean and sober" and that many of you that knew me then might think that I am "cured." Wrong. I have relapsed.
It probably started about 6 months after meeting a my new "godess" and has continued on and off since then. Nothing like the daily torture of porn addiction it was (hours and hours of searching for that "right" scene to get me off.) But it happens about once per week or two I guess.

Addicted Partner

Submitted by katten on

Some of you have probably noticed already that I have suddenly started refering to my boyfriend as a porn addict rather than an ex-porn addict. It came as a surprise to me too. However, it explains a lot too. I couldn't understand why he was willing to have sex with me when he realised that it was causing me pain. In the past he has always been really good at calling an end to sex if he thought I was no longer comfortable.

trying again, 1 week no p/m/o

Submitted by Boswell on

Right, havent been on here for a while. Old habits have been coming back and ive kind of lost course in the past few months.

I have been using porn regularly, however i have been very careful not to let it escalate as it did before. I have not been using extreme porn or fantasies like i used to, the kind that i am still dealing with the shame of even 8 months from when i realised it was wrong and started to try and change (if youve read any of my earlier post youll know what these are).

porn usage

Submitted by adora on

I have been with my husband for 6 years, married for 2. Whilst we sarted off with a healthy sex life it has over the years dwindled. after the first year together I discovered he had been using porn, when I confronted him he denied it strongly & made excuses for the search history. I have since found on regular occassion he uses porn has signed up to adult dating sites & even paid to watch live web cams. I have made him aware of how this upsets me, we had a long chat about a year ago & he promised he would stop.

Complete Disaster (Please Help)

Submitted by Frank on

No, this is not related to my girlfriend adventure... (Susan, it very strongly seems to me, is not interested in me, but that's for some other day's discussion)

Yesterday I felt some sexual attraction patterns return to my mind. I did try to do some transmutation yesterday, but not to much avail. Today, I ended up ejaculating.