I've never written a blog before but felt compelled to blog this experience for two reasons. Firstly, just purely for myself so I can document the changes, if any, I experience throughout my reboot and secondly to be part of the control group Gary was talking about in his videos on yourbrainonporn.com.
I was texting my cuddle buddy today and was being sweet and in return she was saying some sweet things to me that showed me she was attracted. As soon as I received those texts I felt my penis sort of jump up a little bit and I felt some emotions. No sexual thoughts though. This shows me that I am starting to reboot but still have a long way to go. I was reading an article( former fappers) on ybop.
It is 5 in the morning and I woke up to myself having an old Porn fantasy. I think I was starting to touch my penis and that's when I woke up and caught myself. I then knew that I had gotten an erection so I went and put ice and cold water on it. At this point I know I'm far off from the reboot. It's nice to know that the material in the dream didnt result in a big response for me.
I just hit day 205 today and wanted to give a quick write up. Spring is coming next week, warm weather has already hit in my region. Spring fever is definitely in the air. Since my last write up, I would say like to just say thanks. Without this community I wouldn't be where I'm at. I recently got a significant raised at my job. Which I didn't expect however, my work performance and quality of life has definitely changed.
So I recently tried to reboot and got about 30 days in with no porn(outside of a few pics), no masturbation, and no orgasm. I was pumped up... Then I decided to smoke MJ with a friend which was the worst decision to make. I also had broken up with my girlfriend at the time a week before that. Being high and not really giving a shit really just messed up my mindset and allowed me to think it was okay to masturbate.
I listened to another self hypnosis mp3 today and again fell asleep haha. I'm always ready for a nap when I do them, so that probably doesn't help. I believe in self hypnosis, so if nothing else, I feel resolved. It could just be a placebo effect, but hey, if it works, that's great too.
I had forgotten how hard it is to get this no PMO thing going. I'm on day 3 now, and as committed as I can possibly be for a year of no PMO.
It's been awhile since I posted in my blog. I've noticed many new members have come along since then. As well as website updates :) Winter has be rough on me as I don't take well to winter. However, I am doing fantastic. Since this whole process I've learned more than I could imagine. I'm on day 182 now, I had some close call relapses a month ago...however I powered through it.
All,
Well in the past I documented success with no PMO for 90 days. I give advice here a lot. Unfortuately, I haven't been taking my own advice. I got stressed, and started moderately drinking more days than not, and then I got into the M habit again. I even started watching P, which never was a problem for me.
OK, guys...
I've just started this blog... First blog ever for me.
Let me introduce myself: 29 years old, male. That's it, nothing else for the time being.
I've started the no-PMO, I'm 3 days in without P (porn), M (masturbation), O (orgasm) or F (fantasizing about porn).
Let me paste here the post I made on another site a couple of days ago, a reply to a very detailed response of a guy who has been doing the reboot for 2 months: