Hello everyone!

I want to thank Marnia for this wonderful site which I think is one of the best when it comes to help us porn addicts.

I believe that having an understanding of what's going on in our brains is critical for quitting porn.

I became addicted to online porn in 2007 with the rise of tube sites which made it so easily available.

Getting erections with real women has been a problem lately. I am 100% sure that the cause of this is porn, so I've decided to create an interesting challenge:

100 days without orgasm.

No porn, no masturbation, no sex.

I just copied and pasted this from another thread. I want to write more about this feminist thinker. THese are just notes that I didn't feel like saving offline.

Andrea Dworkin's definition of Porn: "Fascist propaganda celebrating violence against women."

This quote is taken from "Letters From a War Zone" a book of essays. The essay's title:

Pornography: The New Terrorism

Not going too well. Every sexual relationship I have had has become fodder for my mind. I still look at porn and don't want to, but, there you go. I think it's been five days without 'fulfillment' and my mind is in the gutter perpetually. Anywhere I go I attempt not to gawk at women but can't really seem to figure it out. It's not that I want to give up, but at times it just difficult to get past the thought that no matter what I'll be lusting after women. I know they say it fades, but does it really? My hat is surely off to those folks on here who seem to go months at their first attempt.

Is it normal for people who have quit for a few months to "flirt" with using it again or looking at it? I've caught myself thinking it's ok to look because I haven't been for awhile. I never want to go back to where I was using it on a regular basis. I like the balance I've been able to reach and the self esteem boost I get for not having viewed it.

Curious what others experience has been.

I've come a long way since being here. Literally have only masturbated a few times since I started visiting this site. I have not really looked at porn and searched for it the way I used to but I noticed that after I did masturbate today (fantasizing about my little lady the whole time) the subsequent feelings of desire to look at porn increased, where they didn't really have any hold on me before. I found myself even typing a porn stars name into a search engine. Almost like waking up from some dream like WTF am I doing here? Luckily I stopped before it became a relapse or binge.

Well posting on here whatever is in my head is certainly helping I think. Each day I'm coming up with things to blog about. Most of it probably sounds rubbish to others, maybe it will make more sense the more I keep at it. And then when I do get round to sitting down to type a post I forget everything I wanted to put.

I'd just like to thank everyone that posts here as well