Submitted by Fisherman on Wed, 2011-01-12 18:06
How witty of me.
Day 128. So, the last month or so has been nothing more than a ride through sobriety. Urges come and go, I have doubts if I'll hold, and then 5 seconds later I'm fine. So the new challenge now is just... well, dealing with all this. It's weird. As time has gone on, my libido is still there, but my goals have changed, so I'm still "good" so to speak. Haven't struggled too badly. Now, the real struggle is dealing with myself. No medication = No fun.
Submitted by Chemicallydriven on Sun, 2010-04-11 15:23
the last time i had orgasm I held back, I can have an orgasm, and not release the dump of what feels like a dose of a great drug. It feels good, but i can still talk and walk and move around. So the husband was in the mood friday, i tried to deflect and stay up, he stayed up, so its against my nature to deny my man of any pleasure. He performs oral, and it took me some time but I had a controlled nice O. I was good. I told him I was afraid to, that I didn’t want that release. As though I had put him up to a challenge, I swear he was after it.
Submitted by Anonymous on Sat, 2010-03-20 22:15
School is starting to get a little bit easier, now that it is half over and less work is being assigned. I think I will be improving in my fight, so I am starting this new thread. I have to make it until Friday and then I will be safe over the weekend, as I will be out of town. Today is day 1 (Sunday) and I have a very good outlook on this week. I feel very strongly that I will make it through without fail. I have a lot of comments from the previous thread on techniques to use to avoid messing up, and I have to thank everyone who contributed.
Submitted by t4ytime on Fri, 2009-07-24 08:30
The thing about keeping busy and working long hours is that I am not prepared for that initial downtime of tiredness/loneliness once you decompress. Man, it hits me like a dormant monster. THAT is when catching myself is crucial. This new tapping I've been doing that Discordia was kind enough to post is gold. A wonderful, wonderful tool. There's a purity and kindness that returns to me that I can't quite explain. Still, if I don't plan what to do with that downtime, there's trouble.
Submitted by Galileo on Mon, 2009-07-06 13:46
Sorry for the sudden assault on this site again, and my moods swinging between bravado and faux serenity, but I've just had sex again for the first time in a million years, and I am having to combat the hangover and my old insecurities. This time I chose someone who is very kind and gentle, and the actual experience was great. But, typically, I chose someone who is not all that accessible emotionally, although maybe I'm just projecting this. I need to stop the wheels turning in my mind. Also, alcohol was involved and I so wish I would stop doing that.
Submitted by hayduke on Fri, 2008-12-19 07:14
Good morning.
I thought I would take a minute to reflect on how nice of a week it has been.
It is day 9 of my first experience in abstinence since I first self-discovered myself 10 years ago.
(on a side note, I've realized that day 15 for me... the minimum length recommended for balance, is going to be christmas day! What a wonderful gift I'm giving myself... balanced brain chemistry. terrific.)
I am amazed at how good i feel, at how much less I feel bad about "me issues" on a day-to-day basis.
not to mention that I just feel much more wholesome when I dont look at porn.
Submitted by Love Gnosis on Mon, 2008-12-15 10:32
I went on a date recently with this lady I've been in-touch with for about a year now; we get on well on the phone and have a lot in common in terms of beliefs, attitudes and approaches. We have stimulating conversation and on the date I do remember at one point making her laugh as well as talking frequently. However, one of her comments bugs me. She was chatting about how she used to be very shy externally and that she felt she needed to express herself more; and particularly with her career she realised that how you say things, expressions, etc matter more than what you say.
Submitted by hayduke on Mon, 2008-12-15 10:26
Reading about Dopamine, and how it triggers the reward circuitry in the brain, I have to assume that a dopamine rush, achieved sexually, or otherwise will leave a person with the same imbalance, experiencing high ups, and low lows.
For me, this is kind of sad, because a number of the activities I center my life around are very much in pursuit of these highs. I never would have thought them to be unhealthy, because they all do the same things; get me out of doors, with friends, and provide much exercize.
Submitted by Jacó on Thu, 2008-10-30 18:08
Hi
I was at class and for a little I remembered porn scenes. Then I said to myself I was using that to have a dopamine arise, that this addiction is kind of a malfunction of the brain and mind and it needs cure. It helps and I think will help more in the future. In the words used here, I think I am in day 7 or 8.
I had some difficulties using the ideas, because I have to improve my will power. Sometimes I liked the scenes and I dislike then when I could think with liberty. The energy arise and it has to be controlled to start thinking better about the situation.
Submitted by Jacó on Fri, 2008-10-24 18:03
I developed these years a kind o path, mental path about sex. Some fixation on my penis, for example.
I don't know this is normal. Sometimes when I see someone hurt, I transfer this to my penis, as it has a nervous chain that carries the energy to there. (Am I being clear?)
This is just a a part.
All day I have images that I use to satisfy myself, in very short time they appear, fast like thoughts (they are thoughts).
I'm having some difficulties to explain. I will try again after.
Thank you.
jacó
