Submitted by Arnold on Sat, 2011-12-03 19:30
I've been having some interesting experiences related to repressed anger these days.
I often seem to have run-ins with large heartless bureaucracies who seem completely oblivious to my needs and yet impact my life heavily. My anger around this dynamic can be incredibly intense (intense enough to cause quite noticeable deterioration in my physical health). I sense a link to my very early youth (I grew up in the shadow of a very large and powerful bureaucracy) and the challenges I face finding cuddle buddies and a partner for intimacy and healing in the present.
Submitted by Arnold on Tue, 2011-11-22 11:56
As I continue to work on healing myself the theme of uncovering repressed anger has been coming up for a week or so now. It's challenging, because I generally don't feel it strongly enough to really figure out where it's coming from in a way that I can do anything about. The effect on my body is pretty extreme though (I'm pretty clear that the fistula I'm currently working on healing is connected to repressed anger in me (a fistula is a hole in the intestine caused by bacterial infection that, in my case, bored it's way through my skin to the outside of my body).
Submitted by Arnold on Fri, 2011-11-18 21:46
Ok. This is my first stab at blogging. I've started at day 1572 (today) because that's about how long (4 years and 16 weeks) I've been exploring Marnia's ideas and inviting others to explore it with me. Finding a partner to do even 3 weeks of the non-sexual Exchanges is something that I have not yet been able to create. (This part of the Exchanges is important to me due to its potential effect on healing the effects of early childhood bonding trauma.) I'm looking forward to connecting with other members of this on-line community.
Submitted by freedom on Fri, 2011-08-26 22:52
Literature, such as that by Eckhart Tolle, suggests that we can change our reaction by focusing on ourselves and moderating our present response. If a situation makes one emotional, we can change our reaction and that will change our response to the situation. How can we know when our response is the correct response for us and indicates that we should instead change the situation? There must be some situations that are meant to be changed. How do we identify that tipping point between the need for inner and outer change so as to make clearer decisions?
Submitted by southernsky on Sat, 2011-05-21 22:50
I found this website six days ago and I realized that I was a porn addict. I have known for a while that this instant gratification I could so easily achieve from the miracle that is the Internet, was not healthy for me. It started out because I did not know anything about sex in the first place and I was too embarrassed to ask my parents. So I did what any confused, testosterone-driven adolescent would do...Google it. The plethora of websites amazed me and I had no idea what the images before my eyes exactly were doing.
Submitted by freedom on Tue, 2011-03-29 20:24
I've been bothered by this for a while. I thought I posted about this before, but I can't find it. It's philosophical and perhaps there is no one answer. It seems the whole world is happiness obsessed. But perhaps I don't get it and someone can enlighten me.
Submitted by Lincoln on Thu, 2011-01-27 21:43
Last week started out pretty good. I didn't really feel many lows, except at the start and recently. The past couple of days I've noticed lots of negative emotions popping up, mainly resentment and entitlement. I rarely feel these emotions, so they were noticable. The emotions were only loosly connected to whatever external object, so I think there is something else they're connected to. I don't know if that is wishful thinking on my part, because I feel pretty petty otherwise.
Submitted by fresh on Fri, 2010-10-01 03:42
So yesterday was a tough day. The day started ok, but I became more and more worried as the day passed. I was thinking that I had to break up with my girlfriend and that all my life would crumble if I did. I started to think and got very very sad and depressed. Bad stuff. I thought that what I wanted was to have sex with lots of women, and not being in a commited relationship.
Submitted by uKnighted on Sat, 2010-07-31 01:16
Greetings. I discovered this site a few months ago. After going over it for a few days I decided to stop masturbating, along with a friend of mine. I started halfway through 13 years old (late from the looks of things). I didnt start doing it everyday until 16 or so, and even then theres been years where I dont feel compelled to masturbate more then every 2 or 3 days. Not the case the last 3 or 4 years, but VERY rarely do I do it more then once a day. I'm not sure why, but maybe its because I have had and do have a handful of other addictions that keep me satieted. Im now 25.
Submitted by KOS-MOS on Fri, 2010-07-02 04:14
Since beginning Yoga practices I have been paying a lot more close attention to how I respond to stimuli. I've come to realize I have a real inclination toward novelty, probably more-so than most people. I live a fairly idiosyncratic lifestyle, but at the same time keep myself on a pretty tight harness. When it comes to true vice, I don't let myself indulge much, though I recognize the want to indulge.
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