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Day 76

Submitted by jake83 on

Well hello everyone, I'm writing on here to inform everyone that 2-3 years ago I was a heavy PMO addict. And to shed light on everyone here and hopefully help others beat their addiction. I'm going to share my story with you on how I beat it but before I begin, I must thank marnia and gary for if it wasn't for them, I to a large extent wouldn't be the same person I am today.

I'd like to start off by saying this forum has helped me realize tremendously that we are not living live for the next sexual encounter.

Day 7

Submitted by jake83 on

K so today marks day 7 of no MO, if you've read my blogs P isn't in the picture at all anymore. so I don't mention it or try to put energy into that.
K so something interesting actually happened to me the other day, A friend I haven't hung out with in a while, goes with me to a restaurant, and one of his friends starts talking to him. my friend goes, later on I'll tell you a story about him. well anyways I wound up finding out the story during their conversation. basically he did adult film videos and he was talking about it to my friend about some of his experiences and whatever.

It's been a while.. etc.. Day 62 no PMO.

Submitted by jake83 on

Well it's been a wYle since the last time I posted on here, quite a bit happened.
Today unfortunately I just MO'ed. So 61 1/2 days went by without any touching, I'm a bit upset at myself for falling prey to MO again. but I guess I'll have to just learn and fix the things I screwed up in this journey.

- my diet. As of yesterday I was still eating meat, milk, and eggs. I didn't eat them often, but if it was offered to me I'd eat it.
- overeating, or over-induldging in junk food. I ate way too much garbage the last couple of nights during late night hours, woke up feeling shitty,

Day 20 no MO

Submitted by jake83 on

well I do got some news to update finally. basically there was this girl in this gym that I always go to and we would always exchange eye contact, and it seemed like something was there or going on I don't know. a while ago I reported asking her out to hang out, and she said she was honored but she had a bf, and she was a bit older then me. Well all seemed fine, and I got over it and didn't plan on talking to her after that. but something just didn't seem quite right and I felt like I was missing something or some piece of the puzzle. it would be fine if it stopped at that but it didn't.

update!

Submitted by jake83 on

Ok I made a mistake it's been 93 days since the last time I watched porn, oopsies, I originally had said 107 but I was wrong! as far as MO goes it's been 11 days since the last time I masturbated and since I had an orgasm. I'm mentally at a point where I'm improving, and I feel no matter how hard it gets I should simply abstain from PMO until I get a gf(Edit: right now it hasn't been hard to abstain at all, but I'm saying if I start getting stiff boners in random places it will get mroe difficult). I feel eventually this'll force me out of my shell.