I’m reasonably good at getting some initial interest from others in me. However, it often doesn’t get to a second interaction or to a first interaction if we initially met online.
I have a pattern of handicapping myself. I’m trying to understand that more to figure out what is going on and what I might want to do about it. It comes up with regard to abstinence, but also in life generally. This is perhaps a deeper issue than discipline that I’ve blogged about before. There is a battle between disciplined parts that leaves me externally a mess. I can’t recall when it started, but it’s been a long-term pattern. Although subtle and not always easy to see the war, I’m often aware of it in one way or another. I don’t know what the purpose is.
I’ve been thinking about Gary’s thread http://www.reuniting.info/node/9508. Folks are here for different reasons. Reboot can be boiled down to resolving ED by improving brain balance or it can be deeper where one tries to rewire core characteristics and circumstances that led to PMO use proclivity in the first place. If one thinks of this as a side of a bell curve, getting that residual growth as one shifts more standard deviations from the mean takes a lot more work than getting the initial benefit from less brain stimulation.
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Hi everybody, it is my pleasure to be here and to become a apart of a community that utilises the power of the internet for community and self-enhancement, self-POWER rather than for what we all know is the downwards spiral of porn.
Marnia and Gary have helped changed my life (or: are changing it!) as have ALL the posts and blog entries I have read here over the last month...THANK YOU ALL!
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