Hello everyone!

I want to thank Marnia for this wonderful site which I think is one of the best when it comes to help us porn addicts.

I believe that having an understanding of what's going on in our brains is critical for quitting porn.

I became addicted to online porn in 2007 with the rise of tube sites which made it so easily available.

Getting erections with real women has been a problem lately. I am 100% sure that the cause of this is porn, so I've decided to create an interesting challenge:

100 days without orgasm.

No porn, no masturbation, no sex.

Day 7 again, however its around day 16+ without viewing the shemale porn and I find my interest in it
decreasing very rapidly. I know the objective is to rid myself of ALL pornography, but this has eased
some little doubts regarding my sexual orientation, at least.

I had a dream last night, where I had the "option" shall we say, to go talk with a beautiful girl I've
recently starting seeing, or a shemale. I chose the girl in my dream I know people say dreams can
sometimes mean nothing, but perhaps this is my sub consious finally understanding how I want to get

I am happy to share with all of you that I have stayed sober for 25 days without any hiccups. This is a great achievement for me because I was successfully fighting my cravings which started again following my job loss. But my determination to find a new job and not to lose my control this time made me stronger and now here I am first time in many years no porn, no masturbation for 25 days.

Hey guys, just doing a quick update.
I had a relapse, which lasted about a day, it wasnt great and I felt disapointed, but I'm learning as I
go along, I'm at Day 3 again now, but I've got some pretty good news.

First of all, I've met an amazing, beautiful girl who I have a real connection with, I'm thinking about her
a lot, but trying to play it cool, as I don't want to come off too over-eager

I've also got a job interview! So I'm a little nervous about that, but excited too.

Anyway, things are going pretty well for me right now

Hey everyone, slipped up again yesterday, but my anxiety and worry about my
sexual orientation is practically gone and I've got the biggest drive EVER to
beat this now.

I ended up masturbating 5 times, first was to reglular porn, 2-4th were shemale
porn, but a funny thing happened, I watched a strait porn movie on the 5th time
and masturbated to that "successfully" shall we say.
Ironic that before after the 1st-2nd time I could barely get an erection looking

Hey everyone, updating my blog again today.

I've been giving this addiction some serious thought and analyzing why and how I fail.
It seems after my last period of abstinence my mind began to make me believe I'm
bisexual to make me "test" with porn, I ended up watching lesbian porn and was greatly aroused, but
after seeing it and getting its "fix" my mind just made me watch it, basically. The attraction to shemale
porn gets its kick from fear I could be bisexual, so when my mind wants to get its fix, it scares

Messed up last night, don't even know what happened, I couldnt sleep and I think the images of the lesbian
porn movie I viewed took over and I couldn't stop thinking about it, it was like the Dopamine just took over
and I had to watch it and.. Well, you know the rest.
I felt awful afterwards, had a headache for 2 hours and still couldn't sleep.

I did learn a valuable lesson though, my head will do anything to trick me and make me believe anything
to get a sneek peek, then it will keep replaying said peek in my head until I view the porn and get my
fix.

It appears that the notion of bonding and oxytocin have finally reached the MSM (mainstream media)

(I consider TownHall.com the Mainstream Media)

http://townhall.com/columnists/RebeccaHagelin/2010/06/22/addicted_to_por...