withdrawal symptoms

[Fri, 2011-12-30]

I have found that reading posts on other’s recovery experience has been very helpful to me in my recovery, so I thought I should contribute. Besides, journaling or “blogging” may help me to some extent. Anything is worth a shot at this point.

I feel a weird energy lately that seems new. I’ve had my share of withdrawal before so I’m confused. I’m in the thick of withdrawal time-wise, but this feels different. I felt something coming before my last relapse and at that point of roughly a month, I would have had reasonable clarity. It doesn’t feel like anxiety in the sense that it seems more active and heart centered and less withdrawing and gut centered. It waxes and wanes throughout the day and through it all I’m actually quite tired, sleeping more than usual, but perhaps resting less.

Feeling really frustrated and under appreciated. I caved in and had some chocolate earlier, and what do you know? hello Mr. Erection comes on full strength. All this shit is really agitating me, and I am getting to the point of loosing my mind.

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Hi,

I've been around for a while, reading some of your stories and experiences with rebooting. I'd like to thank everyone who is sharing their thoughts here. It was very helpful.
I wanted to share my own story. Hoping to get some feedback from you guys. Maybe it also help someone. Please excuse my bad english, I'm not a native speaker.

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When I was about 23 years old, I used to consider myself pretty good in bed. Sometimes I was a bit shy around girls, but I was always able to get over it. I've got no problem geting it up and minimum problems with premature ejaculation.

Interesting symptoms going through week 5. I hit a bit week of flatline period... kinda dead down south, no nighttime/morning wood like I am used to. However, I would wake up almost every morning around 5:15-5:30am with an "itchy" groin, like by body wanted to get my penis erect but couldn't. Kind of uncomfortable, and killed my sleep patterns. After 30-45 minutes I was able to roll over and get some more shut-eye before having to get up, but it definitely left me tired.

25 days, almost halfway to "typical" recovery. Had a good news/bad news experience.

I have been successful in completely avoiding my triggering fetish porn, and only slipped up a couple of very brief times and fantasized about it. However, since my goal is to get aroused without the porn or fantasy, I haven't completely avoided thinking about real-life (or at least real) women.

Now at 3 weeks no PMO. When I'm not otherwise busy at work, exercising etc. the little guy down there is, in a word, itchy. Wants to be aroused, wants to be touched. Man, does that itch want to be scratched! But I've stayed away from the fetish porn and fantasizing, and it's like he's forgotten how to get erect without it. If I could even fantasize to thoughts of a normal, real-life woman and get hard that would be fine, but it doesn't happen. Yet.